DoomGaze

DoomGaze followed Annael who led him to Celes. He silently cursed at the DJ, who was starting songs even before the ones before it had finished, ultimately cutting his dance with Annael very short. Several moments later, they came up to Celes who was drunk because she was alone and had nothing else better to do. Annael was the first out of the 2 fallen angels to make contact to her. "How are you, Celes?" she asked politely, ignoring her drunkeness. Celes turned her head and blankly stared at the 2. "I have visiterrrs?!?! Come sit downnn, have a drink or twoo." The 2 angels smiled and sat down, but refused any on coming drinks from the lady. She continually checked to see if we had changed our minds about the drinks every 5 minutes. The two visitors remain silent, because Celes was rambling slurred words and DoomGaze and Annael tried to decipher them. "Dirinkss rrre vuury guud heeere, I's drwunk sooz maaanies ooov tzem ndd dey floooow in meee," Then she started to speak in french. "juue vuuuulay dansai avuc mooi?" She got up and very dizzy and confused. She took one step forward, and almost lost her balance. The 2 angels looked at her all confused as they watched her pet her cat. "Weeell," she asked "whill yuuu?" She stared at DoomGaze, who didn't know what to do, and simply nodded because he needed a quick answer. She took his hand and ran awkwardly to the dance floor. In the meantime, he still wondering where he was going.

Congratz!!! *Does some cartwheels and forward handsprings to celebrate* "Can't forget the hugs too!! **HUGS**

yeah, Halloween is not what it used to be especially the costumes worn, when i do think about it, weren't costumes made to be scary or startle someone? in my book, little pokemon and harry potter costumes arent scary at all, unless you've developped some kind of new phobia never ever recorded... hehe thx for the reminder Canid, great poem!

thx guys and gals for your comments.. brought a smile on my face to see everyone liked it... Yes Merelas, even the smallest things can bring someone down, but in this case, the only thing that brought me down was time, and i realized that today, as the girl i liked was with someone else who just recently asked her out. Maybe if i had more time i could have, and would have done more than i had... i guess now, i will have to use your 5 steps to get me out of this mess. thx again... i will try to move on, but it's easier said than done. *hugs* back to all the gals and *handshakes* go to the guys, thx

Pauvre Petit Garcon ===================== Ma tristesse devient mon seul ami, Je reste toujours immobile. Sur mon balcon, il neige dehors, Je compte les flocons jusqu'a mille. Ils plongent doucement sur la terre, Comme mon bonheur que j'avais. Le facon je feutre de cette fille, Elle ne le saura jamais. Pauvre petit garcon, tout confondu, Dans les affaires de l'amour. Etre patient, pauvre petit garcon, Il t'arrivera un jour. --------------------------------------------------------- Poor Little Boy ============== My sadness becomes my only friend, I always remain motionless. On my balcony, it snows outside, I count the flakes just to a thousand. They dive gently on the earth, Like the happiness that I had. The way I felt for this girl, She will never know. Poor little boy, all confused, In the matters of love. Be patient, poor little boy, It will happen one day.

ok Celes, j'en vas essayer un 'tit poeme en francais mais j'en ai besoin du temps... hehe et oui, vous avez tous le droit a me dire que ce n'est pas bon

bien faites Annael, hehe Yes I do know how to speak french.. I guess living in Quebec comes in handy.. Ecrit plus, je veux en voir d'autre

DoomGaze and Annael found themselves upon the dance floor, with confusion on their faces, they both never had danced in their lifetime. Just about when they started to dance, a blinding flash of light emitted from where Salinye stood. DoomGaze then instinctively shielded Annael with his wings. Having done this, he closed the gap between the two and found himself closer than he's ever been to someone, physically that is. He looked at her, and gave off a slight smile, then withdrew himself after the light had faded. "Sorry, Annael." he apologized. "My instincts got the better of me, I should have..." Annael quickly interupted his sentence, "It's okay Doomy, there's no need to apologize for what you did." She smiled at him, and he had lost his worried face, happy knowing he had done a good thing. "Shall we continue what we set out to do?" he asked. "Of course" she responded. But as soon as they started to dance, the music faded out to another song, this one having to be at a slower pace, in other words, a slow dance. Both had just started to dance, but a slow dance right away. DoomGaze gulped and Annael curled her hair with her finger, both portraying shyness. "Y...you don't have to Doomy" she said hesistantly. "I understand if you choose not to." He looked at her confused, "Other than my shyness, Annael, there is nothing more to stop me from dancing with you, unless," he gulped, "You don't want to." "My intention would be the exact opposite of that, Doomy,I would be glad to dance with you." she reassured him. With that said, and a couple of smile exchanges, the two looked at each other. Then, as if both were sharing one thought, they said " Now how do we do this?!!?" They looked at the other couples who had already started to dance. They seemed like professionals to them. After seconds of examining the other guests, they decided if it was now or never. DoomGaze took a deep breath as he placed both his hands gently on her waist. She was stunned at the way DoomGaze was able to examine them so quickly and mimic them. She took a stare at the dancing couple closest to them, and then put her arms around his neck, and rested her head upon his shoulder. "Now that wasn't so hard was it?" DoomGaze said jokingly, acting like he was now the expert at dancing. She quickly responded, "No, it wasn't hard at all..."

sorry to hear that Arwen, it is a beautiful yet sad poem at the same time.. i am going through this stage as we speak, and i cling to hope, because i do believe there is. And yes doubts overwhelm the hope that is left, if there is any hope at all, but i still stay... my friends tell me to keep trying but when is enough. I personally don't want to stay in it too long, for my heart will be broken if I realized that the girl i like would rather be with someone else than me... *hugs* i know what your feeling.. your not the only one... as for me, i will hope until i know for sure that no hope remains...

Forgetting The Past ============================ Time echoes without a sound, Caressing every second that it takes. Uncontrollable, spiralling around, The walls of past behind it breaks. Recollect those memories gone, Who now lay shattered in the void. Only to be remembered and not redone, But far from being destroyed. Some memories are better left behind, Because you want to forget. Others you store away so no one can find, The visible signs they give of regret. When at the end of the tunnel, We remain apart of space. Good memories start to funnel, Disappearing without a trace. Sleeping until we can sleep no more, Until we unleash the terrible scream, The scream we wished to do before, While in front of our unreachable dream. The past will unvoluntarily be there, No matter how hard we try to pull away. Haunting our minds with agonizing care, Memories are forever here to stay.

DoomGaze stared at her blankly, and sighed after he repeated those unfamilar words "Good times." He honestly never experienced any times where he felt good, other than this ball. He had never ever known a good time before this either. All his life was the opposite, filled with sorrow and grief. He frowned at Annael, because he could not really talk about that subject. "Sorry Annael, over time sadness has made its home within me and ever since, I've been trying to cope with it, in other words, I can be called the Angel of Sorrow.. for now..." He made a half smile, to show that he was trying to change that. He then gazed at the floor, thinking within thoughts as he closed his eyes. Annael then commented on his wings to try and change subject, "Such beautiful wings they are." He opened his eyes and stared back at her "They are, aren't they?" A small but visible smile emerged from his face. He sighed again having the feel to apologize for his misunderstood silence. "I'm sorry that I can't be talkative at sometimes." "It's okay." she replied. He got up from the bench, and looked around, then looked back down, "Seems that people here are happy when they are dancing," he struggled trying to finish his sentence, "Would you care to.. ummmm.... dance?" He held out his hand, awaiting Annael's response with a smile.

DoomGaze was walking behind Zariah when suddenly, butterflies twirled about him. He watched them flutter, then swooping at him, as if trying to get his attention. He paused to see where the butterflies had come from and suddenly his eyes stared at the fallen angel, Annael, who had her eyes fixed on his wings, and then hers.. as if comparing them. He smiled and chuckled at the curious angel. "Zariah!" DoomGaze called out. She quickly turned around and saw that DoomGaze had been halted by a couple of butterflies. "It's okay, you can go ahead if you wish, I'll be with Sam if you need me" Zariah said as if she knew what was going on from the start. DoomGaze nodded and smiled in a thankful way. He let the butterflies guide him towards his destination. A moment later, he stopped infront of the fallen angel, who was still looking at her wings. When she lifted her head, she was surprised to see that DoomGaze was right there, infront of her. She nervously brushed her black wings. DoomGaze finally broke the silence between the two and said "You wish to see me?" She hastily replied with an "Uh huh" as she continued to stare at his wings. "I'm taking you like my wings? Well it's not everyday you see crimson colored wings now do you" he joked. She giggled and nodded her head. "Well, your wings a pretty too," DoomGaze continued, "unless you don't find my wings pretty, but still yours are pretty." DoomGaze was so nervous, it was the first time in a long time he had ever had contact with an angel, let alone a Fallen one at that. But he maintained his posture and courageously stood there. He wasn't sure if he made any sense to her, because she had not replied to him yet.

"Me?!?!" DoomGaze struggles to find the words. (Well actually he knows the answer, but he doesn't want to sound boring.) "Well, I like to think about stuff," he says, ("Oh good one, Doomy, now thats just interesting!!") and I like wander alone, so that no one can disturb me while I think." ("Well now you've made my day, you completely said the opposite of what you were set out to do.") He watches as Zariah waits impatiently for someone to enter the Ballroom. DoomGaze quickly tries to catch once more her attention by tapping her on the shoulder. "Are you waiting for someone, Zariah?" She quickly nodded. In a desperate attempt to get her mind off of the entrance of the Ball, DoomGaze quickly suggested "Why don't you show me around, and perhaps.... errm, how should I say this... introduce me to some of your friends in here?" She sighed then accepted his idea. She began to walk through the crowd and DoomGaze wasn't too far behind.

DoomGaze quickly glanced up and revealed his sorrow-burdened face, to the lady who called herself Zariah. He was amazed that someone was actually talking to him. "The name is.. errm.. ummm, Doomgaze" he studdered. He slightly chuckled at her remark of not the one to socialize. She looked at him with awkward feel to it, and slightly punched him on the shoulder. "What's so funny?" she asked. "Oh nothing, just the fact that I'm a little unsocial too," he grinned, "but the fact that you are willing to talk to me brings a little happiness into myself." She stared at him from head to toe, as if examining all his features. DoomGaze mockingly twirled for her with a slight grin on his face. "Is that better, or shall I do a counter-clockwise spin for you too" he said sarcastically. DoomGaze laughed, but knew he was going to receieve another punch from the lady. "Ok, ok, I'm sorry, didn't mean to insult you in any way." She nodded and punched him again, then grinned. "Seems to me, you've never seen an angel before, eh? Well I don't blame you, there's an abundance of elves here," he looks at all the elves. " What about yourself Zariah?" he smiled with shyness.

DoomGaze sat on an empty chair near the bar, watching new arrivals come in. He sat quietly just staring in awe at the beautiful gals who walked in with their unique but remarkable dresses. It made him wonder if he was actually fitting in. His attention drew to the fallen angel known as Annael. He smiled and thought to himself "At least I'm not the only fallen angel here." He chuckled and gave a sigh of relief even though he still did not know how to fit in. With his nervousness gone, his shyness took its place. He grew silent as the conversations in the Ballroom grew louder. The fact that know one talked to him after he had introduced himself worried him much, and sometimes he felt like leaving the perfect opportunity to really get to know the people who were around him all this time. DoomGaze then proceded to stretch his crimson wings, trying to get people's attentions, but no luck. He sat quietly, thinking and admiring the laughter-filled environment. "I was never cared for in the beginning, what makes this time so different?" he wondered. So many unanswered questions made him reflect upon his unwanted past. "Who would want to see an angel who has lost his immortality anyways, I am an outcast, a loner, and that's all I'll ever be," he whispered to himself angrily, "and yet I was invited wasn't I? For one reason or another, right?!" DoomGaze stood up, had an even bigger frown on his face that he has ever had, and walked slowly towards the exit to the ball, with his head staring down to the floor. He stopped within the crowd, to think if was the right thing to do, and just stood there, awaiting an answer from his lost minded thoughts...

DoomGaze walks toward the entrance of the Fall Ball he was recently invited to, and brushes his left shoulder gently. He pauses at the mirror installed near the door to do some last inspections. He stares at himself with deep, oceanic blue eyes, and passes his hand through his thick dark, brown hair. He looks at his attire, unsure if this was good enough to wear at the ball, no shirt, but a slight six-pack to make up for it, (Due to reasons that don't have to be explained) and nice baggy black pants. On both of his wrists he has two silver bracelets, imbued with runic inscriptions that only he knew what they meant. His name comes from the expression on his face he always had. "So many strangers will be here" he whispers to himself. He slowly steps into the room barefoot and admires the beautiful frescos on the ceiling. As he stares down, he notices that he was being eyed on by invitees already there. His dark crimson wings gleamed with much radiance, (They must have been why the people were staring at him) as he walked in the elegantly lit room. His head was facing the floor as he approaches the first of the guests. He looks up briefly, revealing only half a smile and his tatooed tear underneath his right eye. He stops in front of Ayshela, finally lifting his head. The sad expression that his tattoo gave to him almost disappeared when he smiles at her. He decides to bow in front of her, because he didn't know what to do next. "Greetings," he spoke with a firm tone "I believe that this is the Fall Ball, is it not?" He waited for Ayshela's response, but she was still stunned by his wings. He nods and chuckles "I'll take that as a yes then." With his nervousness gone, he walks cheerfully to the other figures in the room, hoping to learn more about them. He greets each and everyone of them with the same opening line, (Part of this due to his lack of social skills) "Hello, the name is DoomGaze, and you might be?" Each person responded and he was delighted. "This might not be that bad now after all" he thought to himself. An unusual delight arose in his eyes, and it made him, finally, after all the years of having a sad face, look happy.

Immortalitas Perditus, Immortality Lost =========================== For the first time I felt pain, The pain of those around me. I realized i wasn't immune anymore Because I've obtained the curse of mortality. I shall fold and conceal my wings, And store them in my memories. Fall through the unreachable clouds Leaving with nothing but unpleasant worries. Love was the only thing I wanted to have, But with one, I must have all. To live forever amongst the crowd, unloved, Or to lose everything in the fall. Regrets resurface, from my choice, While I yet strive to live again. I broke into this small, dark cage, And found a world that has no end. Piercing through the vast darkness, I discovered a beauty greater than Heaven, She gazed at me with eyes so pure, But her wings were as black as a raven's. A fallen angel she was, just like me, Her story not so different from mine. My wings unveil themselves, now crude black, And with hers, they intertwine. The love I found here, Cannot compare to the cost. To suffer through all the agonizing pain, Immortalitas Perditus, Immortality Lost.....

Statue's Tear =============== The howling wind of the north, Blisters the hallways with cold. And through dank passages come forth, A statue with face condoled. Frozen in time for an eternity, Left to live alone. A king he was, ruling so blindly, Sat on his marble throne. His emotions unstable, A curse befell upon his crown. In his final moments, he was able To shed a single tear renown. Now that tear lay dormant, Forever imbued in stone. And many memories absent, Better off unknown.

Opposites Attract ================= Scorched earth, Sparks fly. Wingless birds Stubbornly die. Summer's snow, Dry rain. Night illuminates Stars drained. Breathless wind Stealing life, Fearless death, Painless strife. Vacant staring Mirrorless reflections. Illusionary realities, Lost directions. Opposites attracting. Endlessly beginning, Beginning's end, Until nothing.

Transitioning Phase ==================== My sorrow filled eyes I use to see, Brings my forsakened self to the brink of dawn. The stars so bright fade ever so slowly Till everything I recognize is far from gone. My frozen heart begins to thaw, Eyes now adjusting to the waking light. Mouth open, discovers some awe As my reborn soul turns from black to white. My wandering spirit dissolves it's advance, The silent echoes in my head fade away. All that was there, has taken their final glance, The torment you see, has gone astray.

Inbetween Light And Darkness ========================= Inbetween light and darkness Exists an illusionary line. It is where paths cross, Where the good and evil intertwine. Sometimes, I wander this path, In search of many things. To cross the Realm of Shadows And see what the concealed brings. On my left holds eternal darkness And on my right, lies the purity of light. Both hold their own ups and downs, But which one is truly right? I shall let the winds of Destiny howl, And determine my unpredictable fate. Will they lead me to happiness? Or keep me in a world of hate? My mind asks too many unanswerable questions, And it leaves me in this blurry void. I continue, floating helplessly to my "doom". The outcome, I cannot avoid.

The Dreadful Reply ========================= Get out of my face, and forget what we had, All these lies created our downfall. Am I supposed to write my feelings on a notepad? Or answer you whenever you call? It is over, nothing left but just utter disgust, And no, I'm not the one you should look at. You say, it'll take time to adjust? Well I don't believe in that! Nothing can change my mind, And nothing you can do, mend this broken heart. My feelings for you will be buried and hard to find, Our joined hands are forever now apart.

Cruelty of Love ==================== Love is such a weird emotion, Never knowing when it is going to strike next. It requires so much devotion, Just to see yourself so hexed. What would ever happen to me, If I found myself in Love again? Will this just be another memory, Or will it be real, better than it has ever been? Only time will tell, Maybe not today or maybe not even tomorrow. But patience is also in this game as well, Wait, wait, till happiness fills the sorrow.

powerful words and emotion in this poem, and sadly, we can never get rid of those people, they are always there. and by your name on MSN, i knew that you would make a poem of some sort. HAHA keep writing love it! lol..

Who Am I? I'm Your... ========================= I speak with muted words, Hear with deaf ears, I show you your illusionary dreams, I bring out your most ghastly fears. You can try to reach me, But I'm nowhere to be found, You can even try to see me, But I'm hidden, safe-sound. I go wherever you go, Stay where you stay. I guide you when we sleep, And when we go out and play. If you have no clue of who I am, Maybe it's because I'm hard to find. But if you really want to know. Who am I? I'm your Mind.