DoomGaze

A piece I wrote 3 months ago... about a girl i liked... The Seven Words ======================== I watch you in these days From a distance, In hopes to find Your emerald eyes. They captivated me, When I saw them. I was in love. The tempest of emotions, Freed me from my chains. But then again, I was lost And it got me nowhere. I fell to the ground And crawled on the floor. I was suffering. My feelings were still there, But they are now dying flames, Compared to the inferno They once were. Past thoughts of you Have lost their wings. I wasn't winning. They screamed endlessly, Falling into nowhere Losing all their meaning. They broke through the barrier, Unable to defy gravity.... Not any more. I was nothing, Just try to remember me, Even though it may be hard to do. I've been gone too long, Said nothing inbetween those times, Because of that, I want to leave. But before I go, One thing was true. I was once in love with you.

Now now, the title seems a little scary for all the people looking at it .... OMG OMG... thank you all lol, thanks a lot... didn't expect all this but yeah, it's happening.. anyways.. like i said before I wont post anything yet... i just got back from a surprise birthday party for me and someone else.... oh boy.... i think i drank a lil too much... ugh..... overall the day turned out to be just fine.... yup yup, boredom turned fun! lalala anyways... i think its off to bed with me... maybe soon i dont know... but soon.. Doomy

It's been a while..... such a long time away from this place...... but I've decided to return, on the date of my birthday. My tardiness can only be excused by the amount of things that has and are happening in my life. University is coming, that will determine my future career, and ultimately the rest of my life. But mind you, i have still been writing poetry here and there.. so I havent really lost my touch.... so I'd just thought to say allo allo.... im back again... and hopefully I'll try and stay here for as best i could.... in the meantime, I'll continue to write and post some of my finished up works, i've kept... But not today, Ive got a birthday to celebrate!! Doomy

Tonight I Cry ============ Stranded on my own plane of existence, My thoughts bleed out onto the open field. They caress and begin to drown my conscience And now my pleas of forgiveness are concealed. Tonight I cry, In the deep, dark corner that I've built. Tonight I try, To pick up the lost tears that I've spilt. The darkness consumed me long ago, As my siphoned heart turned cold black. It's lifeless beats faintly show, And kill the emotions that I lack. Tonight I cry, In the deep, dark corner I call guilt. Tonight I try, To cleanse the crimson tears that I've spilt. My hands are now stained and baptized in red, And I have no more tears left to wash it away. My clouded mind kept my judgment well fed With the emptyness, that's here to stay. Tonight I cry, In the deep, dark corner that I did tilt. Tonight I die, And sleep with the tears that I've spilt.

A Void Among Us All ================= Lying among all of us, Slowly rotting away our value of life, A void creeps, hidden to the eye, Inflicting nothing but a sense of emptyness. Sadness drifts from person to person, As they try to find something or someone. To fill them until they feel complete, But unfortunatly, there is no such thing as complete. Still they search, knowing nothing can cure them, Only wishing that this once temporary void, Go away with time, but it will And always be with us. Picking up pieces from memory’s lane, Discarding old useless one’s on the way. Such a pity that we can never carry them all, And hold them close to the heart. I see this day to remember my memories, Whom I’ve thrown away into the past. Our journey has just begun in this life, Beginning, ending within the void.

Shallow Grave =============== Moonlit shadows colour this grey world With melodies of undisturbed silence. Silent echoes ravage the darkness, As they leave a trail, guided by absence. Crisp, stale air fills my lungs, As I breathe in the world around me. A lonely breeze dares to speak in my ear, Haunting me with every word spoken faintly. I choose to run through a corridor of fog, Only to have it blind my direction. Each turn I took, torment followed, Until I dug my own grave, nailed shut the coffin. Feeling safe within the confines of solitude, I embrace the asylum-like walls. Demons beckon me within the dark, I let go, and succumb to their calls. They draw me closer to my demise, A soul lost, that no one could save. I watch as I float away, Away from the ruins of my shallow grave.

Katy, Katy, Katy.... whenever I see a poem this long (maybe not this long ) I tend to only read about half of it, but when I started reading this, it drew me in more and more.... This poem is vibrant with deep, raw emotion, and I'm quite speechless, to a certain extent. I will probably not endure what you have but I sort of know where you are coming from, thinking that there may be a chance next time that someone will feel and change their minds about you, even though everytime you tried, it came back and smacked you in the face. You show great courage and endurance at accepting your past mistakes and hopefully not try to repeat them in the process, but learn upon them. (Maybe I should learn from you, I'm struggling to accept my past now) As a final note, remarkably emotion poem that I would definatly give a good grade for... There is nothing like emotion at it's purest form in writing. :woot: :woot: :woot: :woot: :woot: 5/5 w00ts from me! PS. don't ever be ashamed of your writing!!

These Iced Tears ============== Gazing at the stars, here alone in the cold My emotions shiver within the dark. I try to grasp the things I wished to hold, But my world has become oh so stark. A cloud of sorrow hovers over me Like a lost child with nowhere to go. It follows just to mock me As these iced tears start to flow. I wake the next day to feel dead inside, The tears have not gone away. It's been years since I've first cried, And ever since, I've felt so afraid. So now I wait, For these iced tears to melt. Maybe one day, but not too late, Then I can hold the feelings I've never felt.

well guys I am back.. yes!! but not mentally ;;; having trouble writing poetry, but i will try and brew something up for later this week, Doomy!

I will be gone to Florida for about 2 weeks, I will be returning home the 31st of December, or hopefully, so i will be unable to write anything due to no internet access *grumbles* I will miss you guys, as well as my real life friends, but hey, i need a vacation... Until then, ciao guys and gals, have a great Christmas, enjoy the holidays while they last, and I will be back before ya know it!

Great to hear from you Ryan!! its been a lil too long withour you around.. keke, anyways, how are things? Over here, they are not so bad.... anyways, if you can go on MSN, ill prolly be there... Ciao!

Fade To Nothing =============== I'm walking in these dull days Thinking about nothing. Thoughts elude me in these days, I can no longer stand this suffering. Fade to nothing, The only refuge I can find. So sorry that I'm fading to nothing, I can't help it, I'm losing my mind. Someone please listen to me, Even if these are silent words I speak. Someone please help me, I need the strength for I am weak. Fade to nothing, Feeling so cold inside. So sorry that I'm fading to nothing, I can't help it, I've lost all pride. I'm almost gone from this world, I don't care, nobody cares. So close to being nothing in this world, I am overrun by despair. I faded to nothing, Given in to the fall. So sorry that I faded to nothing, I can't help it, I lost it all.

beautiful poem Regel, i love how you made the poem flow so nicely, the imagery is nice as well i love the first 2 lines, i dont know why, but i just do... hehe i guess its the way you put it. again beautifully written, i would love to see some more of your works.... keep writing!

Happy B-Day Zariah, hehe, i didnt see you on MSN yesterday, so i couldnt wish you a sooner Happy B-Day... Oh god i feel so ashamed, your birthday was yesterday and i didnt post anything until now... errrr, plz forgive me... hehe anyways i hope you had a great day yesterday, and wish you many more Birthdays such as this one.... i will talk to you later no doubt, on MSN tonight, thats if you on or not...

NEW SCHOOL OWNS OLD SCHOOL, THE GRAPHICS ARE WAAAAY BETTER!!!! errrrr, forgive me... hahaha, in my opinion both are even in different ways... i love a lot of the old school games, but i like new school games as well.... as an artist myself (or at least i deem myself to be one) i believe that CGs in a game are sometimes breathtaking, cause i am fascinated by the amount of detail is done to create them, as well as the in play graphics... but then when i think of old school, i find that even if they have the worst graphics ever, the story and the amount of extra searching for hidden things and so on in the game destroys the newer games... especially in FF series, there are so many things you can and find by searching, while i think the game developers have become lazy in that department... i will and always love to explore things in a game, either by randomly flying around in my airship and landing on islands or talking to every little person in a city... boy i miss that as for tetris it's a classic, but it does get boring after a while. Mario is always fun too most of the time, it also depends on the genre of game to that your playing... RPGs have drastically enhanced their graphics, but maintaining or even loweringall other categories. Racing games are one of the few genres that have improved in everything. Well enough from me, thats my 2 cents worth!

great poem Hopperwolf, like it a lot, although i do have to agree that some points the rhythm is rough.... hehe i guess we both got something in common

Sweet Darkness ================= A silent breeze swept through the mist, And it knocked gently upon my door. An eerie voice planted on me, a kiss, None of which I felt before. The door opened, she was standing there, Sweet Darkness, looking at me. My eyes turned away for I could not bare, As it was a sight I was not meant to see. She softly spoke words into my ear. "Fear not me, for I am just a guide. Worry not, you have nothing to fear But the choice your about to decide." Nodding my head I took her hand, Sweet Darkness, standing beside me. My vision blurred, now seeing grains of sand, As the reality I knew was not meant to be. Awaken into a world not of my own, Embraced by the darkness and solitude. I felt the strange comfort of being alone, It was like a Hell I chose not to elude. Thinking in silence, I close my eyes, Sweet Darkness, within me she'll be. To see past all the truths, all the lies, As everything was oh so clear to me.

good old Joseph Campbell.... ignorance is bliss =P

The second song had just begun started.. an entirely different genre of song to be exact. It was more classical in nature, and more ballroom dancing like. Zariah looked at the other couple twirl and dance around the room, and sometimes avoiding them to not get hit. DoomGaze suddenly took her left hand, and raised it in the air, holding it, his other hand going on her waist. "Don't worry," he reassured her "I've done this once before." Her right hand was still free, as she didnot know where to put it. He chuckled, "Put it on my shoulder." She did so. "Now follow my lead" The two now where amongst the crowd, no longer misfits in the group of dancers. They glided and twirled in motion as the others did. Zariah's first steps were a bit shaky but she adjusted well to the pace of the dance. He stared at her and said "Not so bad now isn't it? Are you sure this isn't your first time?" She laughed at him, continuing to do what she has been doing. DoomGaze still noticed her glancing at the Ball's doorway, seeming like she still is awaiting her date worryingly. He knew that he didn't have much time to spare before the slowdance had come up, but he was trying to make it up to her by doing the best he could to entertain her.

DoomGaze was stunned at her proposal. " A dance with me?!?!" he answered immediately. He suddenly nodded his head in delight, with a gentle smile on his face. He stood there, not knowing what to do. She too, having done the first move, awaited his lead. "Well," she said "Lead the way!" He laughed trying to hide the fact that he did not know how to lead, "Me lead?! Well I guess I can try" He sighed, and then asked Zariah to stay where she was. He quickly ran up to where the DJ was playing songs. He whispered in his ear asking for 1 dance beat song, 1 classical dance, and 1 slow dance. The DJ nodded in approval and quickly changed to the song type of his request. "What was that for?!" she asked inquisitively. "You will see" The music changed to a beat-filled song, and people started to strut their stuff on the dancefloor. DoomGaze took Zariah's hand and lead her to the floor where everyone was dancing. He wondered if actually putting a slow dance as one of his requests a good idea, but nonetheless, he thought that maybe the 2 songs he put before it would delay enough time for her date to arrive, but if worse comes to worse, the two would have to dance through out all 3 songs. He started to dance, mimicking and combining the moves of other guests. She giggled at him and laugh. He stopped "What's wrong?" "Oh nothing" she stopped herself from continuing to laugh. "C'mon, dance away Zariah! Let yourself go, but not too much" She started to dance, and he continued to mimic others.

DoomGaze found himself lost in his thoughts as the company he was with distanced themselves from him. He grew tired an weary from all the action that had been displayed by the mysterious, lab-coat bearing lizard everyone called Wyvern. "Poor sap," DoomGaze remarked, eyes fixating on the lizard "He is trying so hard to impress people, yet all his efforts become more and more disasterous at each attempt." DoomGaze sighed once more as he started to look around the room. He spotted Zariah, but something was different, she was with a crow, but to his curiosity, she still had the same face on from when DoomGaze first met her. he looked back and he saw poor Annael sitting at bar, where he had left her before having an embarassing moment with Celes. He felt divided between the two. DoomGaze didn't want to leave Annael alone, unless she really wanted to be, but coming form experience, he truly believed that no one would want that if they were given the oppotunity to be with. He smiled shily at the alone fallen angel, who was being entertained by her butterflies, but the expression on Annael's face showed that she was getting a little tired. She noticed DoomGaze had glanced at her and smiled. She hopped off the stool. brushed her dress with her hands and walked to him. "So watcha doing?!" she asked merrily. He stood there and shrugged at her, "Right now I'm doing nothing, but I was thinking on going to see Zariah over there, her date hasn't shown up yet, and I just felt like keeping her company. You can come with if you want." She smiled and so did he, but he was unsure if Annael would want to go. "I'll be over there then, if you want to come over" She nodded as DoomGaze drifted off towards Zariah.

hmmm... just in time too, im fairly new to Haikus, as a matter of fact i just posted 3 of them up today.. =) i would love to participate if possible... doesn't matter who my partner is as long as they are willing to give it their best.

HAIKUS ---------------------- Sun =========== Sun burns high above, Like an ocean on fire Waiting to dry up. Life of a Shadow =========== The eternal lives. Fade out until tomorrow Where they are revived. Inhale Death =========== Breathing motions kill, The spirit we've never had. Borned to die slowly. POEM ---------------------- Different Realities =========== Everything was too hard to take, All my assumptions, so farfetched. Proven that it was all so fake By meaningless drawings simply sketched. Was it so hard to do what you've done? You tore out my worthless heart, Threw it into the fiery sun. All that remains, is left to fall apart. Everything just went smoothly, But it wasn't the answer I really wanted. At least you let me go easily, Thoughts of you are now haunted. Was it so hard to do what you've done? You let me there to bleed over time. Is this your idea of fun? Your gentle let go, was to me a crime. Everything went better than great. My dreams I guess have come true. There is nothing to think of of hate, Because it's the simple fact that I'm with you. Was it so hard to do what you've done? Everything turned out okay... right? Broken until we are both gone, Struggle until we can no longer fight.

DoomGaze uncontrollably nodded his way through Celes' drunk and disfigured questions. Having no clue what she had last said, and still nodding, he watched some snakes slither inbetween him and the drunken lady. It didn't appear that Celes knew there were snakes about in the room, as she clumsily tried to dance and twirl her way towards DoomGaze. To his surprise, her feet narrowing missed each snake that passed by, and he sighed in relief. "That was a close one" he said. She looked confused and replied "A clooossse uone?" "Yes, you stepped on some snakes" "Snnaaakessz? Yoou meeans the snaaakez danze, non? I cun doo ze snaaakez danze." Celes started to do an awfully confusing and eerie dance. DoomGaze slapped his forehead, and used his hand to cover his eyes. He then peeked to look, only to see her continuing the dance. She didn't stop because she had her eyes closed, and she couldn't see DoomGaze's expression on his face. He then looked in the direction of Annael, who remained alone at the bar, where Celes had dragged him from. She giggled at him, and it caused him to put his head down in embarassment, to hide that he had blushed. Some of the guest looked towards Celes and looked shocked, which caused more and more people to stare at the two. "Celes, Celes" he whispered. "Everyone is looking your way." She opened her eyes to see almost everyone staring at her, each one trying to keep themselves form giving off laughter. "I tuldz you i wasssn't a guud danzcer!" she explained "Evereeonez iz loookin ats mee." DoomGaze them signaled to Celes that maybe dancing was not a good idea after all. He took her hand and led her back to the bar stool where he had found her.

DoomGaze walks into the room to see a huge Congratulations sign posted... He quickly walks past it, but the some small print catches his eyes underneath the colourful letters... He decides to go see what it says, his curiosity got the better of him. A smile erupted on his face as he started to celebrate silently. Too much tension built up inside of him, and he could not hold his happiness in no more... "YEEEEAAAA!" he exclaimed while jumping with his fist raised in the air. He then hugged Gwai who was still around the sign when this happened.. "Page ain't so bad" he continued. -------------------------------------- w00t thx alot.. hehe ill do my best to continue posting my poems, and such.... and get higher in status here..... GOAL: To dominate the pen by the end of next year.. MWAHAHAHAH *evil laugh* j/k... I'll take it one step at a time, and my time will come....