Tasslehoff

-=Love=- You looked into my eyes Filling my heart with all these falsified lies Not knowing right from wrong, I believed in you What else could I do? I handed you a key to my heart You unlocked my barriers, saw the real me Stepped on in and then That is when all hell broke loose You cursed my name, stomped on my soul Filling me with a great pain Like a shot from a poison tipped dart Yet still to this day All that I can say is I love you - I love you Michele Lorraine Andrade.. I love you.. -

As I sit back in front of this computer, the room dark, except for the faint glow off the screen, I gently rock to the music that plays in the backround.. Pleasing my ears with anything from Boyz II Men to Godsmack, to Eminem... Silence echoes through-out the entire house, for the only noise is the tapping of keys.. I've always wondered what keeps one strong, keeps one believing.. There are so many times, where I have quit, or I tell myself to run away.. I just give up and walk away, but then, times get hard, and I feel I get weak and I run back.. But this time. I stood strong and held my ground.. Didnt fight the pain.. the depression as it poured over my soul.. And much to my dis-belief, I was happy.. I was able to move on with my life... But.. That was till last Sunday, when my past, all that pain, all that mis-guided hope rushed back into my mind.. Completely causing a train wreck with-in an instant.. shivering.... crying... I listened to her words.. let them sink in, as the hope followed.. I couldnt say no.. Dont know why, but I still cared.. after the bad.. the ugly.. and the worst, I still stood there, embracing her back into my heart.. But it scares me so deeply.. Will it be the same.. will it be different? I want to believe it is so as I hide my pain behind jokes, and pitty. She leaves, and its back to normal.. but only for a short period of time.. Once again, she forms in front of me.. But this time its not so bad.. Shivering ceases, and I am actually happy.. Extremely happy... And then. I wait.. For she leaves again, and I wait.. Will she be back? 2hrs later.. Nope... 2 days later.. Nope.. It drives me insane.. The same path as before.. Where will it lead this time.. Can I divert my course, or am I stuck in a fools path that repeats its self again..and again... and once more, again. I suppose the call this love.. maybe lust..maybe crazy.. but what ever it is.. I dont want it..I dont need it.. I want to be me..I want to be me again... or do I need it.. Is it me.. Is it us.. Are we entagled together? Is there a bond strung so tight between us, that we cant break it.. Will she always be there for me? Will she love me again? yea.. just talking..

Go, go, go, go Go, go, go shawty It's your birthday We gon' party like it's yo birthday We gon' sip Bacardi like it's your birthday And you know we don't care It's not your birthday! * these lyrics have been edited for the case of this post, but I have to thank 50 Cent, Wyverns favorite rapper [=P] for the concept. *

I echo Archaneus in not having a long speech for you Vlad, but hey, I think its awesome that The Pen strives like it does and that the member we have are so awesome. I have never seen on resentment of hate and everybody is willing to help and I think it just brings this community even closer together, even if we are worlds apart.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUNE & DOPEY!!

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww *hugs Rune for a whole 10 minutes.. Lets go.. and then hugs her again not wanting to let go*

Besides your dancing chicken, over-all I give it a 12 outta 15! Its so true. Love is quite the *cosmic force*.. Very well done Zool. I dont have any complaints. =D

Go Zariah! That was awesome!

*blinks* Ha Ha Ha. I find this poem so funny.. lol.. I so felt like a little rat as I read it.. Ha Ha. I must be in Shades cage.. ;P *blinks*

Well Elvida, your poem was good as it is.. There are maybe a few suggestion I could make? I have copied the poem onto notepad, and will look over it a few times, and see what I can think of.. `k? try to get back to you soon!

WoW. Very good owrk there buddy! Great job, Great Job!! I like it a lot

No congrats needed here. I didnt do anything myself, for like the poem says : Like I said though, cant let it hold me back. Gotta just keep my head straight and keep moving

Reverie.. I dont know WHAT You did [ ] But! Shelley4886: Can we talk? LaViTzCa: Its up to you Shelley4886: Then yes. -sigh-

Hey, that was really good Vlad! I havent read much of your work, but I think I will read more now!! On to the next!

I sit here stuck in memories, The tears running from my eyes, The waves hitting me as hard as they can, The pain ever so goddamn crushing, Not giving up its all so unrelenting Looking up to the sky for a release, All this pain buildig up, Needing some way to vent, Looking up to the sunset with many fears, Day turning to night, Bringing the nightmares again Rushing over the edge, this is the end, Falling down; Deeper; Even farther, But it is no differnt from yesterday Just another day, just another sunset...

I think the treasure is you.. Therefore, I shall make it through the mist! ONWARD! * starts to run throught the mist, only the slam into the from door of the Banquet Room.. * " Erm, HeH. Forgot to opent he door " Mumbles the injured Angel before he falls over, knocked out OOC: That was very good ready Nightshade. =)

Very interesting Doom. its good.. Very good. I like the concept.. And it reminds me.. * Flys off to go thru teh Angel-Fly-Through-Wing-Wash *

Reverie, if only it was that easy. We where off and on for 1.5 years, I tried, and she just didnt want it. No reason to fight it anymore. =)

The dreams continue to haunt me, The pictures of our love and happines pass by, All these words I've written down you'll never see, Breathing in and out; I sigh a great big sigh, Hoping to wake up from the past, Spinning me 'round and 'round; I spin, You stick my heart in a blender once again, The dizzyness sending me to the ground; I fall, Cant fight you know more; Its just to hard! I dont really like that one.. But I lost my eraser..-sigh-

dido!?

[ you didnt mention me.. ] But on a more serious note. I too would like to raise a glass to BPO's speech! I too am glad to be part of this community, and I hope, when the time comes that I have to leave for sometime, that I will be able to come back and still see the same friendly post. =) Good Job ALL!

Thansk you guys. And well.. Peredhil, to show this to her, would be like speaking Italian to a guy that can only speak Norwegian. She is just to damn blind, and it doesnt matter. I wont ever get to be with her, so I must move on I suppose.. -sigh-

The words I wish to speak to you, Would express the ever growing desire to be with you, Not knowing what to say; Not knowing what to do, I stand off to the side; Standing all alone, Darkness of pain and rejection ever growing with-in, I turn away closing my eyes to it all, Hoping for it to all be gone, But of-course, Again and again it fails wishes And still there you are standing in my way, All this un-yielding pain; Its comes and goes and go like today and tomorrow, Why cant you see that things wouldnt be so bad, The mere thought of you being sad tears me up and kills my heart, But does it mean anything to you? How can you say it does! You are the one chucking that poisonous dart, When the hell does it end? If only these words I could speak to you.

Ha Ha! Happy Birthday

Quickly recovering from the unexpected attack of Waterlily, and realizes he must help Falcon, AngelXIIX, slams his staff into the back of masked mysterious wrestler's knees as he climbs up the Outer ring to do an aerial attack. After watching the wrestler fall AngelXIIX turns his attention to Waterlily.. Slowly raising his staff above his head Angel chants an un-reconizable sentance : Takea Thisa Youa Bastarda {=P} which cause the giant plant to float off of Falcon to only raise 20 feet in the air before plummeting onto the fallen wrestler.. *SMASH*