Cheyenne

I love this!

You know, I started playing Archmage when I was living in Bates City. That would have been 1998 maybe...That would mean I met you and Wyv around 99? I started at 25 and here I am at 36 wondering where my inspiration retired too!!! Most days I am really happy to not find another grey hair and find it to be a miracle if the kids did the dishes. How is the family BP? Are you doing well?

This was really 7 years ago? OMG!!! Where has the time gone?

Wow, I had forgotten about this! It is so wonderful to look back and go "oh, Yeah!" that really was me! I miss you all so. I have been out of the writing game for over 3 years now...I am happy with the 2 published poems I have. I just miss the minds behind my muse...as it was you all, most especially BP, Wyvern and Ozy. You all are wonderul and always on the edge of the most amazing dreams I have! Cheyenne, aka: Jini

You may feel that it was written from society's standpoint, however, it was written from my own standpoint while being tweaked out of my mind, contemplating the lengths to which I would go for my next fix. It was a dark, sad time of my life. I am grateful to be done with my mind and family intact. On the upside, I just received word that this poem is to be published.

I was really playing with this one for a long time. The ending still is not "right" I amnot happy with it... You see no soul can this way be stolen Until maggots feed upon the dead. Those were originally the last 2 lines which I really like I just couldn't make it "read". Work in progress. Love the feedback. Thank you BP!

You are correct "as" would flow from the tongue with more smoothness. Puncuation....never my stong point but am willing to work on it. Thanks for the input! You're the best!

*please tell me what you think...everyone!!* I heard a whisper in the hall last night. It was soft, so low, yet crystal clear with meaning. Like usual however I turn away with just a wisp of regret tugging at my heart. (As usual however I turn away with just a wisp of regret tugging at my heart.)??? what do ya'll think? How long had it been I silently wonder? How long ago it seemed since the bright rays of hope shone upon my doorstep let alone my soul. It wa so easy to do nothing. To simply wonder at the lives of others while my own drifted away with the years and the only thing changing was the creases around my eyes. Soon, too soon, the creases would become wrinkles beckoning me ever toward old age and oblivion. It is much like the crashing of an airplane. Once you realize it is going to happen you just sit back, without a fight, and wait to die. Panic welled inside me as my minds eye turned inward to the long cold loneliness of life. Icy cold fingers grasped fleetingly at my heart, threatening to overwhelm me with grief. Until once more, I turn away. Silently accepting the fact that my name won't be recalled or remembered beyond my death except by a grainte slab planted in the ground. Such as is the life of one who exists but fails to live.

*please tell me what you think...everyone!!* Thoughts in transition finding a void to roam steering thru the darkness blindly looking for a home Meth sent them a packin' brainwaves all but broken yet life continues to glide by as I sit here slowly tokin' Stress and worry burn away a grey haze floats thru the air poisonous fumes sucked deep within seeking the lonely to ensnare blackened lungs energize the body transforming a girl to a hoe trading flesh for white rock heaven presenting Hell a brand new soul dreams died that very moment glass dick entered lips of red giving evil this last victory as maggots feed upon her head.

The privilage is all mine my dear Sir! In any case child wants attention. Gotta run. Hate to go.....no....don't want to leave......arghhh.....please no......not again......ayeeeeeeeee.................

I am so looking forward to it as well. Oh and guess what the poem I got published in 2004 is FINALLY in print! I am getting a copy of it by next month and will scan the page and post it here if poss. That isn't violating any laws since I wrote it is it??? Love you all! Missing you more.

And no end in sight. I have several poems to share soon I hope. Missing you all terribly. Hope to be more active (like 3 years ago active) in about 6 months. I am so looking forward to it.

My knight in shining armor once again! What would I ever do without you? Thanks so much. Cheye~

alright now can someone get rid of this weenie collar? I can't say I really enjoy it. Thanks.

I thought you might enjoy! So Grand to see you again my friend. It has been too long and how I have missed you. More to come soon. Been feeling creative lately. Cheye~

To Circumsize it truely a must the mother to be sadly fussed How else to keep the little Weenie and all of its folding skin clean...y? A little cut here, a wailing cry there A sharpened pencil, don't despair! Cheye~

watcha mean it shows?! Geez....you could have just answered my question! And since my dictionary is in my other pants...whats mollusc? Oh, and I am not back, I never left. I stopped in here from time to time just have not posted. Thanks all the same though.

ps...long time since I posted, what's this weenie thing?

To All~ Mankind is wonderful and magnificant in all its glory and shame. We, humans in general, are a gift, one the we all tend to take for granted from time to time. I feel no sense of responsibility to be nice or polite to anyone on these boards, and from time to time have made enemies. However I do strive to give respect as it is given and love to those in need as that is my nature. For the most part I have found most arguments or strife is due to miscommunication or a need to be heard. The need to be heard portion of the writers are usually wanting attention and bad attention is better than none at all...much like a 3 year old. Even in hot political or religious debates one can be adamant on their stance without being....well, an ass. It is all how the person themselves WANT to be taken and how you are going to react. Life is about attitude. Even when it sucks, if you can smile and still see and believe in the miracle of life, the world around you, then you are more than halfway there. Life is simply a series of small pictures. We all need to look less at the small picture of ourselves and the larger picture of mankind. my 2 cents anyway Cheye~

I had to read this three times through, it is amazing. As you are. So vivid, my mind tried to keep up, but all I could do was feel. Hope all is well for you my friend.

Oh yeah, the g-spot is not a myth. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Although most would say to follow your head and not your heart...I say follow your instinct as it will most often prove to be the best way to go. When one (atleast myself) has tried to be rational I feel like hell yet when I go with the heart, I usually end up thinking..."what the hell was I thinking" so even though I know many may disagree, gut instinct has always been a way of survival for me. Just my 2 cents anyway.

Thank you all so much! This is the first I have been able to see and view. I miss you all so much! As soon as I have a home again and a phone I will get internet restored.....I promise! you all are the best! and by the way the birthday was wonderful!

This thread is so amazing. I still feel the "WOW" everytime someone else knows who I am and writes my name down with the others such as Brute...I still think most write better than me here and stress everytime I put my poems in here for fear of....rejection maybe....I don't know.... I still recall meeting Wyv....I wrote him a personal ad on the UBB he wanted an experienced player and I played the harlot and stole his heart....was so much fun. I miss you all so much. Hope to be here in person more often in here spiritually every day. love you all! Cheye