The Star-Maiden's Application

[Elwen]

Greetings, honored ones. I am Elwen, "Star-Maiden" if you prefer, and I wish to apply to this guild. My application, "Monologue" (for lack of a better title) is below. It's from a longer 'fic of mine.

 

 

Monologue

 

Christine: This prayer is for me tonight

For the sister I could not save

For the friend now chained to the darkness

For all those who weep in the endless night

For the loss of all I believed

For all the hope cloaked in deceit

For all that I have failed to do

 

This prayer is for me tonight

For the girl who should have lived to be old

For her beloved who gave his life for his beloved

For me who atones tonight and for forever more

For what I should have done but was not strong enough to do

For the deaths that were never stopped

For the cycle that should have been broken but was not

 

This prayer is for me tonight

For all those who died in hope

So that the rest of us don’t live in despair

For me who must live with my sorrow, live my own life

For me who seeks redemption tonight

For what I have not done and should have

For the deaths I was not strong enough to stop

 

This prayer is for me tonight

For the little sister who I guided to her death

For her lover who suffers still, sealed in stone

For the lies that I never saw through

For the deceit I never questioned but obeyed

For the infinite possibilities she spoke of once

For the two I damned but cannot ever save

 

This prayer is for me tonight

For the next who must travel this path

For the deaths that add to this chain

For the next who must face what comes at the end

For all those who follow in the years ahead

For those who fight and believe and die

For the lives cut short and the love that dies

 

This prayer is for me tonight

For the innocence I lost

For the innocence I threw away

For the fate I refused to accept

For the fate that happened anyway

For the teachings I curse now

For all of what I never knew

 

This prayer is for me tonight

And it is the last, and the hardest of all

For what I never was strong enough to do

For all of what I have failed to do

For the moment I had when I could have turned you both away

The moment when I should have stopped you and stopped it all

I loved you both, my soul-siblings

And in the end, I let you both go

I damned you both, and I cannot save you

You, with your hidden passion and raven hair

You, with your hidden darkness and black coat

Thus I seek forgiveness tonight

This prayer is for me tonight

Thus I atone

Can I be forgiven?

[Peredhil]

Peredhil saunters in on his way to chat with Melba and greets the newcomer with the pretty name.

 

After Politely asking, he reads her application.

 

That's very pretty and shows subtly as well as skill. I'm not sure, I'm just an Ancient and my memory is creaky, but I think an entirely original piece of work is required.

 

Elder Wyvern will be in and about - I'm sure his wisdom will unravel this knotty problem in short order.

 

Turning, he pats Melba, the Elder's Almost Secretary who moved in one day on her own, on the back firmly. For some reason she'd turned red and begun choking on her coffee during his speech.