Mardrax
-
Posts
526 -
Joined
-
Last visited
Content Type
Profiles
Forums
Events
Posts posted by Mardrax
-
-
Theme 11: Memory
Panopticon
An angry white guy
Yammering into my ears
Incessant, obnoxiously
As if he had something
To prove to me then
Messages of 'make it
Or die trying' filled me
Exchanged for blood
Gore, guts and sexuality
Two worlds so different
And which was I in?
None. Never was.
Stuck in the middle
Caught in between
Nowhere to belong
Yet everywhere to go
The only memento I hold
Dear.
-
Theme 10: Breathe
Cycle
Inhale
Let me tear myself apart
To get a little room inside
Help me clear out all the crap
So I can breathe
Exhale
Get it all out of my chest
So I don't have to keep it down
And slowly choke myself
'Cause I can't breathe
Inhale
Focussing on that deep breath
Since I don't really have a choice
But to get clean air inside
And suck it up
-
It's been some time coming, but I've been awesomely busy today. Here's a can't-set-my-mind-haiku.
Theme 9: Cut
Pain pays?
Her legs a' pumping
Bloody streamlets running down
Attention unpaid
-
It's perfectly fine here I'd think Mai. Also: great job. I love it.
-
Alrighty. New day (past midnight, yo!)
Theme 8: Away
The hole of you
I walked into the room that day
Opened the door, prepared to be pounced
And stood there, waiting for nothing
I sighed in resignation as I saw
Your spot on the couch, the table
Void of any sign of your presence
My nostrils flared, smelled the wolf
But she too was gone
I fell on the couch, a sigh of relief
Finally some peace and quiet
Both of us needed it
But it panged, anyway
The loss of you tore at my core
Weird. Few things, few people have
And it is with that hole in my being
I walk around today, trying to fill it up
With friends, and hellish lot of noise
Yet the silly DJ killed the power
But the friends, they're there
And miss Neutrality on her way
Mes amies: je t'adore.
-
Don't worry, you'll see more. I haven't been around this long to disappear after reaching an arbitrarily set ammount of postings in an arbitrarily set timeframe
Hardest part of this challenge so far: I want to rush through it. If I didn't hold myself back, I'd be done by tomorrow evening. Good stuff.
-
Amen to that Snypiuer.
-
*returns the hug heartily* Yesterday, I would have said "worse". Now, I say "I just woke up, just hug me and hush!" ;p
Naw. I really don't know. Feel iffy, but clean. Done my things. Nothing more I can do.
~~~~~
Theme 7: Heaven (it rhymes, you know. And *yay!* one week down)
So should I pray to Him?
That last moment of sitting there
Just sitting there, and talking
Silly little pets in balls, adorable
Through the hurt, the anguish
The mutual differences aside
Life's insecurities rolled past
That's where my mind stays
In purgatory, the wretched must wait
You telling me "I don't know
When I'm leaving, or be back
It all depends on Him now
I cannot know His ways"
Yet I know the old Lord
Has never been a kind one
And like a true passing, you went
Without a proper chance for goodbye
To return to your lost loved ones
And I'm left here, disillusioned
At least, I know that from this Heaven
You'll one day return
Yet I don't know if I should wish this upon you.
-
I just noticed I never read this, and wow, am I sorry.
Like P said, originality is a myth, mostly. Every chord's been played, every word's been said, every thought's been thought. It's our job to rearrange them into something different. Something inherently ours. Or theirs. Or no one's.
I love the role reversal you did here. It makes a strong story of mutual care, of kindness repaid. I especially love the lines of "Wash my face / With tears from your eyes". They make for a powerful image of cleansing through hurt and empathy.
Snypiuer, my hat off to you.
-
Simple,
clear,
concise.
Nothing left to take away.
You, my old friend,
should be musetickled more often.
-
Welcome to my burden here James. That it may be as pleasant a burden for you as it is for me.
And you're off to a good start
-
I look forward to having a partner in crime James.
To continue, a short one, but full enough:
Theme 6: Break
The Camel's Back
Stuff rained down in disarray
As You Bastard's calculations
Thought to seek what it might weigh
Since he felt the sensations
Of that final strand of hay
And sank through his foundations
Queen Ptraci walked away
To pursue her obligations
Took her things without parley
To see missed destinations
And left You Bastard an array
Of baseless allegations
-
So, while I'm doing the challenge, there's no reason I can't do unrelated stuff, so here goes. Bits of this have been nagging at me far too long. For those thinking there's some strange language in here, it's because apparently my control of the English language still isn't perfect at 6 am, while falling asleep in between writing
~~~~~
She exists there, perched on my couch
And like I've been warned, her moods swing
One minute smiling, cuddling the pup
The other just, there. Cursing everything
Lamenting the existence of herself, and all the world
Around her, inside her, causing hurt and fatigue
But everything, always, inside.
And I look inside, and see myself. Reflected
Upon slights glaring at me, saying "hey mate
This is you, you're this. Your natural state of
Frag the world, and everything, everyone in it
Not as if I need you, you don't offer me anything
Worth the investment of being thankful over
Since really, it's all fleeting anyway, as I am
I might as well fleet on.
Sail my little boat across the oceans
Of ennui and annoyance as I sing
My eternal song of "I can do this
Better. With more investment.
I can take more from this. But then I do
Not care about anything I could
And anything I'd want to take keeps on
Dissapearing behind this or the next wave
Forever just out of grasp, as I fumble
For the rigging that keeps all this together"
And I look outside, and see you again
Still perched like a queen of distant
Disillusion hopes and dreams
And the same thoughts hit me like waves
Ebbing and flowing with the unsteady beat
Of an exhausted man on his last breaths
Why do I do this?
What drives me to invest so much of that
Of which I have so little; time, energy, cheer
Into one I barely know, but share my bed with
Into one who gives so little back, exempting
Those rare moments of synchronised upswing
When all I get is a smile, but it fills me with hope
Like seeing the mast of your floundering
Cardboard boat rise above a crest, triumphant
Saying for the moment, we can take this
And I can think of but one answer:
For love.
Yet I lie. How misplaced is that answer, seriously?
It's not. Yet, it's so wrong. The question is
Not, nor has ever been one of for what. Rather
For love of whom, and why? What do I chase, really
And I answer all anyone ever can: I listen to the stories
I tell myself, chasing pipe dreams of things, people
That have long dissappeared behind waves, behind me
Because every time, I still see her, in you, like I did
See myself in her, and you in me, and all our boats
Tossed into one wave-valley by a stream of thought
And every time I think I've something to make up
To the both of you, and I won't ever to her
And you? You just keep racking up the guilt
Telling me whatever I do, it's not sufficient
That no matter how hard I paddle, the next wave
Will just carry you off again, out of reach
And I look behind me, and see the world
Outside my little bathtub of aggravations
Where all this time, the tap's been running
Water thundering down, the wavemaker
Yet I haven't had the chance to pull the plug
And I think to this world, forget about it
I've been doing the same
Hey world?
I'm sorry.
One day, a wave will carry me up within reach
And I'll turn off the tap that created it
Let my little tub of worries come to rest
And say "Hey world,
Thanks for paddling after me."
But for now, I'll paddle after you
Hoping one day, you'll turn off your tap
That you may rest, recover, and tell me
The same. Why?
For love of howling at the Moon.
As the most distant of friends
Can feel closest at times.
-
Theme 5: Rot
Time, flies
You sit there
mocking me
emphasising my point:
Time, I need
more of it, always.
While she sits there
Waiting for me
To prepare some of you
Underlining the fact
That while I feel bad
You just go it
While time slips from me
It just passes for you
Still, dear dinner
We both grow old,
white and hairy.
-
Theme 4: Dark (Figures, doesn't it?)
Face to void
So long ago, that I sat there
Too long, since I had anywhere
To sit there, just sit there
And utter my way of a prayer.
With or without moon
The wind would sing its croon
While my thoughts were just strewn
As I let them go, this I swear
The waves lapped at my feet
Come rain, storm or sleet
On the pier, my retreat
Where I would so often repair.
But always, those new year's
As I would switch back gears
Make good on my arrears
As fireworks lit up the air
Always it was me
Always the darkness
Face to void.
-
Oh how we long for that day Zool.
Still, realise that writing every day doesn't necessarily mean posting every day. You can save up in the days without a net connection.
~~~~~~
Theme 3: Light (working through the basics here)
Fuzzy
Something about fuzz
Because even the memory
Has been trying
At times, growing hairy
Since everything fuzzy does
-Everything alive-
Eventually
Still, the feeling's the same
With the sun's fuzzy rays
Filtered through a curtain
Of early sunday morning
And while I'd still pledge my smile
To wake you up every time
This precious, fuzzy gem
-We still keep close to us
'Tween my hand and your belly-
Is all we'll ever need
So let's make light of it.
-
Lol Snypiuer, quick response there. Stop biscuiting about your commenting skills though, you've anything at all to offer, I'll accept it gladly.
And yay for some extra incentive. Let's see what we can make of this.
~~~~~
Theme 2: Love (To have this exfenetrated)
It might be good, but it's a bit cookie dough
You know
That hard, cold exterior
You so proudly boast
Hiding that doughy inside
Was meant to be warmed
Yet it's utterly frozen
When we met, I expected
More darkness inside you
You promised me this
What bits there were, dough
coated and all, complimented
Your vanilla make-up blend
Too simple for the tastes
Of most, some claim
I would have, myself
Had I not eaten you out
So many wonderful times
So every time we lay,
Spoons in firm embrace
And have our insides meet
I thank your creators
Mister B and Mister J,
Truly
I love you.
-
So right. I've decided to take up this challenge as a way to get out of my "I should write more" cycle of remarking that, but not following up. Also, it's a step in my admittedly ambitious plan to get myself to obey some discipline, instead of always balking at it.
So what challenge is this? Some of you might have seen it floating around. I'll be trying to write a single poem every day, each to a different theme, for 100 days. At that rate, I should be finished in late juli. Let's see if I can keep this up. Feedback and comments are absolutely welcome in between my own stuff. Here goes:
~~~~~
Theme 1: Introduction
First Coming
two wolves pulled you
your car standing there
hood open, trunk crammed
a traveler in body
I wasn't just seeing
where you were going
where we were going
since I travelled too
and that first awkward second
hug of first impressions
quick, glancing, tentative
summarised our not knowing
what to do
until the wolf
brought the Moon down
down out of sight
but never out of mind.
-
I find this hard to place words to. Mind if I use yours? Oh, well if yours aren't any good either, let me try.
Te feeling I get here s something we as writers must have all felt at some point, and by extension everyone creating anything, so pretty much everyone.It's recognisable, but almost in a way to be chewed out already, though the form you give it is refreshing. Your use of the rhyme scheme flows naturally for me, and doesn't seem forced at all. Nice feat there. Rythm, however, is something you could definitely use some work on, and meter by extension. Some lines and combinations thereof flow exceptionally well, other s are very jarring to me. Did you intend those to jar? The "darkly lurking" stands out in particular there. I think "where they lurk / while" would work much better there.
Content-wise, I love the self-referencing of the second to last stanza. Futher, I guess the old adage is true. Admitting you've a problem is the first step to gettig out of it, and I guess you've taken the second here already. Nice and empowering.
All in all, well done Jomeansme. I look forward to seeing more of your work.
-
Let me just chip in here and say I've been checking in semi-regularly, but haven't been doing more than reading the Banquet Room and participating in the First Lines thing Gravia rebooted. This is actually the first time in two years, I think, that I've looked beyond the walls of the Banquet.
What can I say? I love my food.
What I've been up to since years back when I was actually active? Living with the person I checked in to talk to most, breaking up again, moving around, switching schools (Training to be a nurse, since I need a vocation where long legs and a blonde mane meet stereotypes. Sadly, 'ninja' lacks any appreciation for this, even though black suits me.) buying my own house, and general stuff. Guess that sortof sums it up.
Expecting more from me would be a no go at the moment, since I'm trying to avoid all this vehement adherence to one type of activity that I've had before. You'll see me 'round from time to time though.
-
You, my friend, are worthy of worship. ;p
-
I can't really give this the time it deserves right now, and don't think I have to, really. Both good reads. The second one feels deep somehow. Good work there. I also like how the first sets a tone that's very much... like a conversation, I guess, but bordering on a "see? There really aren't any monsters under the bed" kind of feel, for me anyway. Good stuff as well
One note of criticism though: don't explain the joke. (Disclaimer: tvtropes will ruin your life)
Most of the time, a point brought across subtly will have far more impact than one brought with bravado, and feel more powerful to boot.
-
Nice, very nice indeed. Powerful.
You keep on showing off that skill in building up through repetition, through adhering to a theme and following it out to the end. As Freyis said, you conjure up images with very little indeed, and such powerful images they are. Such powerful emotions they express. With the scant ammmount of material you achieve that with, it's an impressive feat indeed.
Some nitpicking: did you mean to lose the 't' in "sanctuary" in the last three stanzas? Also "they were drown out" should probably be "they were drowned out" in all cases. Lastly, the last line of the second stanza has a double "the".
That is, coincidentally, the only line that doesn't sit very well with me. It's powerful, vivid, but it doesn't fit the structure of the other stanzas very well, mostly because it's just longer. Perhaps something like "the hum of praying men" would work better?
In the end though, what's more important: what do you think? How does playing around with formatting feel to you? Does it make things more difficult? Does it widen your options and your sense of what you can do?
-
*grin*
I like.
I love how you keep on displaying a knack of building strength through repitition, without feeling like you're repeating yourself.
If I would be giving you any tips, it'd be to experiment some with structure and formatting. Play around with punctuation, capitalisation and other stylistical elements.
For example in this piece, does every sentence really need that comma at the end? That capital at the start? Does every sentence need the line break where it is? Does every letter need to be the same boring typeset that you've used before?
Straight, unbolded?
Or could it do with a little taste of Italics?
What effect do all of these elements have? What would be the effect if you omitted them, or replaced?
You're showing a very firm grasp of the formatting structure you've used in mostly the same form as you've used in all your works on here, of delivering content as is - simple and effective. Breaking out of that mold may make your grasp even firmer.
Challenging myself
in Banquet Room Archives
Posted
Theme 12: Insanity
You Can Watch
Some would call it deviant
Locking oneself from the world
Keep it there long enough
And most would step it up
A notch or two
On the wall of aggravations
Bearing its marks of long
Imprisonment within it
A colourful world
Yet so utterly alone
So quiet, peaceful
That no one, ever
Could set a foot inside
But me.
This retreat? Mine.
My wall, my chalks.
And you're not playing with them.
In a million years.
But you? You can watch.