Mardrax
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Wait for the ricochet
as people stand gawkingEyes cast your way
You must have said something
that must have been bad
Yet now there is nothing
Nothing left to be said
as you stand there waiting
Running thoughts through your head
Your heart picks up thumping
Turns your face all red
as you wait for their dumping
You see their stilled tongues
preparing to voice
Now here surely it comes
And they snicker
Their laughter is brief
but from your discomfort
it offers
relief~~~~~~~~
Ancient friends in absentia -
Politest of elders, how can you not seethat life's just the greatest reposit'ry
of hopes and ideas, strewn over a canvas?
Spread by a twister, like this girl from Kansas
of whom all you would see were her shoes and her glee.
But a blur, fast and white would turn all else in sight
forevermore speeding, obscured in their flight
to where it might just be blank.
Yet let me be frank,
when her house set down, she went all over town
with monkies that flew after a witch's gown
on the most glorious journey for shoes.
So set your house down, politest of birds
and see how your blank pages form their own words.
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Alright, awesome stuff! Keep on going there Snypiuer.
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So how are we now folks?
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I'm a bit late in doing this, a I apparently dropped off the face of the earth, but well done! Congratulations! It's good to see I've inpired someone to this greatness.
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Theme 28: Sorrow
Roaming No More; Lament For A Phone
My head rested 'gainst the plastic seat before me
Tried in vain to block out the sound of babies -
Crying their lungs out as mommy tried to hush them -
Echoing like bats hunting in my cranium
That familiar, empty feeling presided, mixed
With that other familiar friend; self-contempt
Never far away, but on these days it can't
Help but stay away from the front of the stage
The stage where I
Stood, grasping, touching
Myself, looking, seeking, frantically
That one bit of - No, it couldn't
Be gone.
In that one moment, I saw
All of my friends fading
All of my brainchilds dying
All of my feelings passing
As I felt my pockets,
Once, twice,
Three times over
Nothing.
An hour of frantic searching later
And boarding the tram in defeat
I was still roaming
But no one picked up on it
As I faced the loss of the world
By myself, utterly.
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Theme 27: Foreign
What we don't know
The kids in the playground outside my window
Shouting loudly amongst eachother
Arguing the merits of football players
Stacks of supermarket stickers in hand
That one girl, a chromosome too many
Running down the stairs in shocked amazement
"Oooh, so bad," As she stares at the ruin of my door
"We're okay, dear," and instantly that smile on her face
That woman from upstairs, her cooking must be awesome
As she drags a behind that could fit me thrice
Up three flights of stairs every day to get it
And still finds energy to greet me brightly every time
All of these people kind, outgoing
Nary a one of them afraid to speak out to his neighbour
I walk among them in austere black, secluded
And people call them foreigners?
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Theme 26: Europe
All your base
Oh bright and shining
-Example of the west
While somehow in the east
Even that follows - and you them
What has become of your so proud cathedrals?
Testaments to your ability to climb, to a spire
Of latching on to your neighbour and pulling
Him down as you climb his shoulders?
For giants you have never been, but shoulders
Of a million men, tamed the land, raised
Everyone after you towards new heights
I look at you now, quibbling, amongst you
Those would drive out the base of our spire
Those who think painted glass in fancy windows
Will provide a lofty perch for a rosy view
Without having the columns to support it
"We do not want these," you say,
"They steal from our world of brilliant white."
And yet you do not see the stone you've charred
Is the stone we've built on, every time
When someone thought to burn our towers
Lying buried deep in solid foundations.
While your scope may have broadened
Terra Incognita now lies 'neath your feet
And those who don't look where they tread
Will most surely look where they fall
So keep on riding that bull, dear girl
But know where it takes you
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Theme 25: Lurking
It hangs there In the back of my mind
My confession
It hides there
Not wanting to be seen
But it burns
I keep it there
Since despite the pain It warms me.
I hush it
Still your roar, dear one
Don't spoil this. -
Also, yeah. That. Amongst other things.
I've had the deepest dip I've gone through in years, with no desire to fuel it by solidifying it into writing, and the knowledge that if I would put pen to paper, I would.
I'll catch up, dear friends. I promise.
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Theme 24: Want
Weeks without end I've lulled myself to rest
That empty grey feeling inside
Me prevailing
And crushing out all
Will to live and to laugh
"What do you want?"
The question burned on
My lips, trembling in the twilight
Of my saviour and my scourge
That soft white
That shone through the pane
That separated us
With means beyond mere distance
No matter how close you chose to come
No matter how hard you tried to shine
Your gentle, self conscious light could never
Hope to penetrate my wall of self raised black
Mixing to a dull grey of mutual misunderstanding
Saying I lied in saying you'd be home
While the pull of you caused tides in me
And still I resolved, each and every day
No matter how distant you were
No matter fow faintly you shone
No matter the pane between us
I'd reel you in one day.
Keeping casting out my nets
Hoping you'd choose to be caught
And show me glass walls can be shattered
And the dimmest glow's a floodlight up close.
But as the moon cast her image
On the waters of my roiling seas
I'd have to take solace in drifting there
A boat in her shadow.
And still, every night, I raise my head
Let my hair tickle the small of my back
As I inhale sea air with the salty pang of tears
And howl at her, before jumping in
To swim, basking in her glory. -
*Shrug* I haven't quite been managing daily myself, and James has had a few days of outage as well. Don't worry about it.
Either way, you've nothing to live up to. You're doing this for you, not us.
(And perhaps a t-shirt and drinks at the end )
And kudos for what you've been doing so far. Impressive.
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Theme 23: Distasteful
Corruption Part 3: Wrongful Decompression
Mothers and children of quiet suburbia
Since this war started we've barely heard all o' ya
But now that it's over, you all rush to the streets
Cheering and hollering over some old man's death
While all are unseeing that is you he defeats
Why don't you remember there is always a Seth?
Are these now your values, so pure and so just
That you cheer as a life is ground into the dust?
Are these now the mores, so free and so true
That you'd wish for your children to carry beyond you?
I sit here, laugh quietly, ashamed of my mirth
Ashamed of my uncaring, unfeeling smile
As the earth's 'proudest nation' shows off its dearth
I might chuckle and snicker, but I still cough up bile.
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Theme 22: Mother (Yay, week 3 done!)
Corruption Part 2: Peace of the Pie
She turned on her heel
Her summer dress whirled
The kids ran with a squeal
Back into mommy's world
To sit down at their table
And gobble their cake
With whipped cream, if able
And as mommy opened the window out wide
They looked at the brightly lit playground outside
And heard the phone ring, heard it ring twice
And saw that expression upon mommy's eyes
And they heard daddy's voice grow ever so grim
"Hello honey, kids. It's over. We've got him."
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Indeed Tav. We'll be waiting for you there with cold beverages ready.
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Snypiuer: This and this might get you a bit further. ^^
Theme 21: War
Corruption Part 1: Child's Play
Kids running through the streets
Chasing eachother with make believe
Rifles, grenades, they are the elites
Since you just can't misconceive
"Ratatat BOW! You're so totally dead!"
"No way pal, you missed!"
"It was right in the head!"
"What? Through the car? Give me a break!"
"Are you coming in kids? We're having cake!"
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Theme 20: Fortitude
Go With The Fall
In my mind's eye
I still see you racing
On two crutches, that one day
Living out of the back of your car
Your foundations smashed to smithereens
In oh so many ways, the extent yet unknown
And still you went racing, going with the fall
As you called it. A tough chick.
Nevermind that might be the day
That you made things much worse than they were
That you tore at bonds further, with your boundless
Will to push, harder. You can do this. Have to
Do this. No one else will.
And still, I walked beside you
And still, I always will
And still, I'll keep saying that
Sometimes it's better
And takes the stronger one
To sit
Still.
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Theme 19: Grey
Undefined
Even, the songs I hear
Even, the food I eat
Even, the walls around me
That seem to dampen everything
A slight background hum
Of sensations, undone.
Even.
Everything equal.
Balanced, flavourless
Gruel of sensations
Watered down and boiled
Free of all taste
Please, for all your highs and lows
They reverbrated with mine
And your colours mixed
With my black austerity
And oh so white moods
I gave you brightness
You gave me contrast
And now that you're gone
All I'm left with is grey.
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Theme 18: Under
Well Stayed
Encircled in stone
A gap in the wall with a light peeking
Like the Earth's deepest dark took a break
And me reaching
From beyond the river, extending myself
Fear to wet my feet holds me back
And you standing
All the way up there, looking down
Wondering how long I'll take to decide
And all the world waiting
A safe distance away from my well of dreams, crumbled
Fearing the consequences of what I might take up
And still I stand reaching
For deepest enlightenment
Which might as well sweep me away.
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Theme 17: Blood
Blood Bears No Memory
He sat there, staring
Vacantly into the oblivion
That had been
Most of his world
Lost to him, as many
Had come, and many gone
His life's juices smeared
Across bed, walls, floor
Handskin flayed
And they stood, watching
Afraid of a man who'd lost
Touch with everything
"Easy," he said. "Take it easy."
"Of course, sir. Don't I always?"
While in the back of her head
The thought prevailed.
"I hate that man."
And she left, like she came
Like the many who had gone.
Leaving him, his awareness
-Like his room- clean.
Empty.
Drained.
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Theme 16: Spit
It came up
Like a point driven home
Far from home
In anticipation of coming thrills
You lay looking at the ceiling
Wondering wether you should
While we talked of all kinds of
Ah, there we go
No, I don't mind
If our exchange of words can't
Sort your thoughts, let's
Let our juices mingle freely
But if you say you owe her
Cut it out.
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Theme 15: Silence
The wind whispers
My house rings loudly
It reverbrates with the lingering echoes
Of all those things you've set atremble
And left to ring out in your wake
Through glaring absence, you call me
Things I rather needn't face or hear
Chasing me around, yet never behind me
In that absence of you, I falter
And now, even I'm gone
Leaving the Thumper to its on devices
Hoping it won't call out to Shai-Hulud
As I step - slip - slide from the desert
And the desert wind whispers
Grinding all things to dust.
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Theme 14: Smile. Week two down! Getting hard to consistently do this, with situations not going my way, me generally feeling like crap and being fairly helpless to stop it. Still, persisting.
Every thought of you
Every sight of you
Every word from you
That ever passed through my ears
Used to elicit smiles, at least inside
Now though, it seems I've forgotten
And most thoughts of you
Most words from you
-Since sights are never there-
Fill me with a certain unpleasant
Flavour of despair, of helplessness
While still, in my heart of hearts
I see you, hear you, think of you
And think "yes dear, I still love you
But oh the pain it costs me."
And inwardly still, I laugh.
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Theme 13: Misfortune
Inner Locus
The thought sometimes hits me
Whenever someone says "Really
what're the odds of this happening
to of all people, me?"
That really, you contruct the odds
And what you call misfortune
Another will call karma, or simply
Cause and effect.
And sometimes, I'll shrug it off
While others, I'll bite into it
-Like a dog chewing a favourite bone
To suck out the sweet marrow inside
And crush it 'tween my jaws-
Savouring the concept of taking
Responsibility for my actions
Rather than having them depend
On some omnipotent outside force
Outside my reach, my understanding
And tell myself "God, that sucks,
But really mate, unconditionally,
it's your own damned fault."
First Lines (V. 2.0)
in Banquet Room
Posted · Edited by Mardrax
D'oh. That's what you get for typing late at night, with perhaps one too many drinks.
Also: the Romans won. Yay!
So here goes.
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Obsession
with things slipping away
ever further away
until nothing remains
but
obsessions
with deepest interests
and shallowest desires
remaining yet unfulfilled
yet
obsessions
cling to my mind
as I cling back in kind
and we bind eachother
when nothing remains
but
obsession
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Time flies, all wibbly wobbly insects