Tasslehoff

To me, love has become the feeling that you just cant live with the person at times, but at that same moment, you cant live out them.

As I starred into your eyes

I believed in what we had

I handed you my heart

But all you do is hand me countless lies

There was no goddamn truth

Again you just stabbed me in my back

Not knowing what to do, I sat down; pictures of you

I let the knife slide across my veins

Let the blood flow to the ground

Not thinking, just letting out my pain

I crumble to the cold floor

My eyes wandered towards the pictures of you again

But all I could see was the enveloping darkness

The one beautiful light gone as I pass away

Down to the depths of the damned hells I fell

Looks as if I wont live another damned day

But I don't see the pain in your eyes

I don't see the tears as you cry

But of-course, I am dead

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Waking up, screaming out with force

The nightmares re-accuring, never ending

Hopeless I am, Can rid myself of these dreams

Forever stuck in these nightmares, Forever hopeless

Well hello my old friends. I am sorry I havent been able to update everyone or better yet, just have a simple conversation with any. I miss it all much, but the USAF has kept me busy working Midnights-0700AM with school. But I did want to let you all know I am moving to Nebraska.. Kind of ironic. Join to see the world, they send you to the center of the country.... Anywho. I was just curious if anyone here is from around the Omaha area, or even near Kansas City, for its only 2.5 hrs away. Well I must be off.. Sleep to catch up on. I promise, Ill get to writing again and share some more work, hate leaving everyone on teh edge without me..

The Mysterious Kender-kind

The government says I might have Mad Cow Disease. I cant donate blood.... What silly gooses....

MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO....

HeH.. Silly government. Always making up stuff.. MOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Um, better go now..

-+- Well, I took Wyverns words into play a bit here and started a small pre-write. I pieced it together a bit. Its still ruff as all h*ll, but I will try to soften up the edges. The poem is a common theme thats been running through my minds these days. As many know, I am currently in the Air Force, and therefore, I live a couple thousand miles from my girlfriend. ( Texas = Me ; California = Her ) Still staying strong we are, but knowing you wont be able to see the one you love dearly for 3 months is ruff, but I can only make us stronger in the end, and so I wait, cause I know, one day, I will marry her, and therefore she will be able to follow me where ever this goverment decides to war the next day.. -+-

All alone it seems I am

Hiding away in my darkest dreams

The thought of loosing you still stands strong

Its all to commom of a theme

Saying good-bye is just so wrong

Cant escape the memories that follow me

Thoughts of you leaving haunt me all day long

Dragging me down farther, again and again

One day it will all change, I promise to you

We will meet another time my angel

No good-byes this time, forever it will be

Cute is just an evil word the devil invented to make guys quiver in there shoes.

When all else fails, its just time to start over

Ive never really made a New Years resolution. Always found them to be a false pretense of pity in some cases, but this year, my resolution is to save enough money so that my g.f can move to where ever I will be stayed to live with me.

OF course I am still alive. No way Basic could keep me down..too long.. Ha ha.. Right now I am in Technical Training to go work on C-135 somewhere in this world. Things are a bit crazy right now.. I will heading home tomorrow and that will be big. I will probably leaving home and coming back to Texas a different man though.. Thinking about proposing to my girl. Havent quite decided. A lot is up in the air. Hopefully I will be able to check in more often and what not.. Talk to you later folks. Thanks for the warm welcome.

Sheesh. Are you still posting around here... Just kidding man. Glad to see you kept your talent going. Keep it up.. Good lookin poem that is.

Well hello all.. I just wanted to drop a quick note saying " Hi and all is well ", cause Its been forever since I stopped by... Hopefully someone remembers me... HmMm. I dont know what to really say but its been a long ride and I cant wait to go home for Christmas Exodus! Well ciao all.. Will try to stop by sometime soon.

As the member of the pen wander in to the Cabaret Room for some idol talk they here the echo of what sounds like heavy marching and the screaming of " Left... Left.. Left..Right Left... Right.. Right.. Left.. Right..Left " Ofcourse, curious as are all pen member they rush to see what was happening. Coming around one corner they all nearly run over a small kender practicing his marching.

" God Damn This! Why cant I get the *about-face* down.. %$^# " mumbles Tasslehoff not realizing his companions are staring at him. Trying once more, an about-face Tasslehoff tries to swing his body into a 180* only to get his feet wrapped up and fall face first at Vlads feet.. Slowly realizing there ARE people around, the kender slowly gets up, brushes himself off and starts his explanation..

" Well Pen Members. As you may know I am due to leave for BMT ( Basic Military Training ) in San Antonio, Texas, to start my new life in the USAF ( United States Air Force ). Well that day will be Monday-September 8th, 2003. And that my friends is only two days. Due to the overwhelming situation this has put my mom in, today is most likely my last day at the pen for quite some time. So I just wish to say my thank yous to all of you, and hey, Ill see you later.. "

With that the kender shakes hands with all and gives them a hug and wanders out of The Pens halls, marching and cussing at the same time..

Sounds Like A Good Idea Vlad. Wish this Kender could participate.

Im watching Trigun here and there on Cartoon Network, during there Adult Swim, pretty cool show..

To be able to read a womans mind..Though its a scary thought, it could lead to interesting dinner conversations..

-Sunset-

I sit here stuck in memories,

The tears running from my eyes,

The waves hitting me as hard as they can,

The pain ever so goddamn crushing,

Not giving up its all so unrelenting

Looking up to the sky for a release,

All this pain building up,

Needing some way to vent,

Looking up to the sunset with many fears,

Day turning to night,

Bringing the nightmares again

Rushing over the edge,

This is the end,

Falling down; Deeper; Even farther,

But it is no differnt from yesterday

Just another day, just another sunset...

As I am one of those people who didnt read the whole JRR Tolkien sequence, for I didnt quite find it an interesting read, I did enjoy the movie(s). I just recently saw Two Towers on VHS and I thought it was a good movie, but as Wyvern said: the begining was a bit rushed, but upon thinking about it, the damned movie is already 3 hours long (sorry, just shy by 1 minute to be precise). I think anymore slowing down and I would have been stuck on that couch all day for oen movie, and same as the first.

I do have to say, I loved the part where ..Whoops. HeH. DOnt want to give anything away. NvM.. LoL

Master P.

Quite a wonderful write you did there. I never knew you wrote poems! Boy, the suprises thepen has in store for us.. I think that poem/song was so great. I love it much.. Very good writing my friend.

=- Over The Edge -=

As I look into your eyes,

All I wish to do is die

For the image that appears and disappears

Doesn't show me in your life

Put to the side on a cold night

A fury of anger and sorrow

It all throws me over the edge

Down I fall, Life passing bye

As I sink, drowning in my own love for you.

What more can I do but clap..

+applause+

a simple extinction of penguin......

a real fear besides the above.. Slowly dying or living to be older then my kids, when I have them.. That would be scary..

How can a kender disagree?

Happy poems = good poems

Aardvark

-Wow. The ending sure caught me suprise. I almost felt bad. This person.. Jumping. Trying to end their own life.. But hey.. parachute.. Who would have known.. :|

Tattered,

Another stunning piece from you.. You continuosly amaze me, even though Ive read your poems for so long now. Please, keep posting

Vincent. That was a great little poem.. Its a great started if you ever happen to extend it any longer.

I dont think I quite got this one Vlad. Next time im around IRC or MSN could you explain it to me? I am very curious