Curious Mylo

Walking blindly into mist

I know she’s there, I must insist

They say give up, she must have died

I don’t believe it, I denied

They always try to break apart

Friendship stronger than their heart

The black coal sitting it the place

Of their heart, the truth they’ll face

They wonder why she ray away

After they broke into day

Now she lies in the ditch

I wish that our lives could switch

Then it would be me lying there

But of this, they’re unaware

When you mess with two best friends

You’re never gunna like the ends

Don’t forget it deep inside

You killed us, it’s not suicide.

Melissa stared into the darkness knowing that somewhere in there laid her husband, Matt. She stood at the door and listened to him breathing for a few seconds to make sure that he was really asleep. As she turned around the whole room came into view and the last 10 minutes flashed before her eyes. Papers flying across the room, glass shattering, dishes breaking, and furniture tipping over. She closed the door behind her and walked across the tornado’s path to find the bathrooms light switch. She gazed into the mirror at the teary mess staring back at her. Somewhere under the sink was a washcloth, but instead of grabbing that she went straight for the kids’ extra clothes. She didn’t even bother to clean up the glass shards on the floor. All she could think about was getting the kids out to the car before Matt woke up again.

Ethan and Angela wouldn’t wake up. Melissa carried them both out to the car and buckled them into their car seats. She dropped their clothes and diaper bag between them and hurried in to get the car keys.

Flashing lights and street signs, buildings and parks. Many memories were left behind but Melissa couldn’t take it anymore. She was tired of covering up bruises and lying to her friends. How many times can one person fall down the stairs?? Especially when her house is one story. The whole time she was thinking, “He’s going to be so angry.” Within two hours time she had decided on the perfect excuse. Olivia had been diagnosed with cancer and needed her support. Only question is… who’s Olivia?

Ethan and Angela started crying and Melissa handed them both bottles. She couldn’t stop the car. She couldn’t risk being stopped by Matt. The night before was flashing threw her memory as if a midget was hitting REWIND, PLAY, REWIND, PLAY… etc. in her mind. Each rewind caused more tears to fall. Even when it was too blurry, she refused to stop the car. She didn’t even know where she was going except that it wasn’t “home”.

You say I’m crazy or I’m blind

But underneath the bands you’ll find

Scars from blades so sharp, so right

But now they’re gone and out of sight

Just once more I want to see

What those blades can do to me

While I want the blood to flow

I want my scar less arm to show

I want the pain so bad it stings

The sign of blood gave me wings

Not a soul could hurt me then

I want to feel that way again

But all the while I’m so proud

That I’ve kept to what I vowed

I’ve shut out those wants for needs

Shut out the cravings, done my deeds

Once I look and see my wrist

Scar less and perfect like I missed.

Falling, falling, leaving home

Walking outside of my dome

I don’t know what lies ahead

When sun has failed or moon is dead

Not knowing drives me insane

So still I sit here in the rain

I don’t like the present anymore

What does the future have in store

The secrets may hide in the past

Could looking back be my last

The horror movie’s coming true

So I hide all I do

At least forever I will try

To hide the tears while I cry

And hide the fears in my eyes

On all the days I want to die

If I’m dead the cuts won’t hurt

If I’m laying in the dirt

And if I’m dead no one would care

Unless they’re cheering, never rare

I can’t say I would be surprised

Ever since I’ve realized

That I’ve never mattered, never will

No one cared, my hope they kill

But I don’t expect it to change

my thoughts refuse to rearrange.