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About Sillytune

  • Birthday 09/27/1994

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    Serbia - Zemun
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    Writing, composing music, reading, chatting, going out, martial arts, body-training, psychology, cartoons, meeting new people.

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  1. Hiya folks, haven't posted in a while, but figured i'd start with this: Working on a song, lyrics go something like this I don't know what i want I don't know anymore I don't know what i need At all I don't know all this shadow I don't know how it came I don't where i was I don't know where i am And this space - it is empty And this place - it is hollow As i burn from within So much desolate sins That've never been here That've never been here As the soul entertains All the pain of my days And my youth starves for truth And my youth starves for truth So siphon all Flush away All that was, all that came Until nothing remains, Until nothing remains So Let the walls, let them crumble All that doubts the doubtful In this world that does haze For your world suffocates Leaving the blind Shattered in - maws of time - Until end is nigh And it's nigh It is nigh It is now It's now Move on - i can't Move on - i can't Move on - i can't Move on - i can't Move on - I can
  2. Between the lies, of a shadow Of a mask, that is me, I have found something, One can say, It's killing me. If there ever was something, That i could say, and say no more, It's the fear of being, and ending, Truly alone. In a corner, of a corner, Where night means - not a thing, And all of darkest memories, Begin, start, and keep striking, The only glimmer, the only light, That one, can truly have, Is a piece, of a hope, Is a peace, that promises, Sadness gone. Amid the mist of ruins, Where i'm suffocating me, All my deaths are dying, What is left will be. If i could cry for a tear, Of a tear, of what is torn, If i could only stop, And say, say - no more - It is a storm, it is a hope, A symbol of previous words, That keep on pushing, With Ten men, in one. And more. ~ I'm simply trying out something, all that poetry and stuffz! - Would love to get feedback :3 ?
  3. Stormy night, dark it was. - the kind of a night, that gives you creepy nightmares or so. Makes you wonder... Whether the world, would see dawn. The another kind of night, where you'd expect to see no one. In the dark streets, so full of shadows, created by the scattered lamplights through the shaded streets. There was... at least someone who wasn't afraid. A few, without protection, other than their somewhat unsettling figure, and ghostly cloak's hood. One 'd wonder... what does that commission entail? Face... their own carelessly lonesome solicitor What was, nobody's business - had been facing storm. (Am i doing this right O_O?)
  4. It's not that it was kind of a night where setting was special, or something that would make you feel sorta distorted by the thought of thoughts that are simply flowing and shivering by the cloudy, misty atmosphere of the dust that's been overly raising and dancing upon the streets, summoned by the one or two cars and a garbage truck that 're passing here and there doing and going where they are with an echoing release of a roaring engines grounding tune. Picture a setting. Sure it was night, within the god forsaken city where the only thing that's illuminating and fighting the clutch of darkness which by itself wasn't scary or frightening at all, more like a mellow, shallow and a chilly hug of a summer's dusk embrace,are the lamp posts and couple of advertising signs that're blinking and covering almost every corner and "it all" with various colors that simply haze one who would pass them by. There was a kid, there's always a kid, doing something somewhere with someone while being and not alone. A strangeness shrouding and relentless warming smile that could be seen from ear to ear and eye to eye, yet followed by the shadow that would not unmask itself till the days and writings ahead and beyond. With these words, in a corner of a corner if i remember well, there was a small apartment that one might say not so rich in possessions, but perhaps even smaller,was occupied by the family who had its days and doubts, but you could always hear and feel, stream of happiness, coming from both within and out. In that family, there was a father, a mother, and a son. Each has its pages of torment, bad omen, and blood and yet each has broken chains that would bind one down. On a terrace, just outside the home itself, with arms bent over the fence with a cigar in one hand, stood the father overlooking the alley, and all the other buildings to each his own home, housing resident of couple more tightly clenched souls. He was a, well - hardened by the life type of a person. A lone wolf, a family man, and the packs, friends, colleagues, strangers, both leader, entertainer, guider and when needed be worst foe, and a friend. Kid who stood behind him, admired the man. Even though sometimes it felt, to the one who stood behind, that he actually lives behind. Drowned in a shadow of twilight that is screaming words admiration and expectation. Kid was foolish, there would be years before he realized that, for every parent, at least his, wished and wishes for a child to live its life, the best it can, and make one "its own". Hope. Love Life Wisdom Day Death And Night To be reborn Relive Live Again No. Only now - and make one's own ahead. The flow of time seemed to drop around the posture for which could be said, from a third pair of eyes, or couple more. That those whole seconds which in reality just glimpsed, shimmered passed in a blink of eye of eyes, were encased in mesmerising cube of eternity's dune, there to remain forever unchanged Forever new. Words that broke the silence not so suddenly flew. ~ Ugh, i'm going to stop for now, just for little bit, while this's not much - it's an introduction to a story, i kinda have to wake up tomorrow get ready for exam. If someone reads this, - it's not done, just an intro of something that i'm writing for the simplicity of writing it - but yet again, i've only done it so i could share a little piece of something with you guys.
  5. With back turned toward Degorram, you could only see faint smile across Sillytune's face as he raised his hand in a gesture while heading towards the door that has shaped itself into a slowly-opening lion gate. A warm echo filled the ever-changing chamber with simple words *Will do, till i see you again*
  6. Maybe because you're a musician, it flows like some sort of lyrics. It also invites thought/reflection, and I like it. I'd be curious whether you ever tried your hand at poetry :-) Thank you for your input, and reply You're right actually I tend to rhyme thoughts a lot, or well simply it's something that works on its own The hardest part is changing negative rhyme to positive one I've got nothing atm when it comes to lyrics - songs, i used to have bunch of them, but they were all sort of dark & same So i've told to myself, i'll start new / fresh, in that - when i write something new, i'll be sure to share!
  7. Hiya, i'm here well to obviously apply for the YOLO-ship of this awesome site. I guess i'll be writing to you, as i would write, read and talk to myself. When it comes to writing my passion 's quite wast, tho' most of stuff that i do (lately) 're practically blog wised short stories about masks and people behind them - hence the theme of blog "City of Demons" I actually have a plan to publish a book under such tittle but that's a discussion for some other time. So, why am i here again? It's kind of simple, English isn't my native language, and this form of speech - i kinda want to craft it, empower it, enrich it, and all those viable adjectives (Those're adjectives, hopefully, grammar was never kinda my strongest point) When it comes to my work, or what i would be writing about, lately i'm quite interested in existential psychology, so i guess i'd be writing about everyday life, for someone it's rediscovering of "hot water", but i have pride in what i do, and i believe that my way of expression - just as anyone's else - 's unique. I'll leave you for now with rough translation of a part of something that i've written before, and a link to a discussion about some well quite different subject This's raw translation with some minor well grammar stuff' I hold my finger in the air. I look at you, i don't see nothing, i'm blind, lost. Go on, don't stop Please, because Tonight, i cry It's hard. You know That's why you're here. I know. I want you to help. I get it. I want you to help me. Pull me out from shit because everything is nothing. I'm not the one. Show me that you care. You're not the one. I don't know you. I'm flowing the story, we've just met. I know you. I see you. I can't. I'm in a dream. I'm scared. Emotions're surging, i know you want it. You're chasing wrong picture - you're reading between the lines, you know how to listen, but you can't hear anything - You're deef' Make a first move. I can't Make a first move You're not the one. I listen to you, i want to help - that's all Wait - stop And tell you which the way wind blows Monday: 12:00 PM I'm waking up, sober, today should be a good day You, do not drink (a lot) - why sober? Thoughts in me they drunken, they raze - leaving nothing behind. Go on. Straight WC - ritual of rituals, morning's shower Monologue's circling: Today you're continuing with reading book. Today you're continuing with man-transformation clips Today you're following code. Okay, wait, stop, what? Flow of water's starting, i feel at peace. Monologue's circling. I'm in trap. Breathing, slowly Inhale, deep Exhale,weak You know, it'd be a lot interesting when all of this would stop What exactly? Well let's say, just right now that that i get hit by a heart attack, or you know, random flaw in electrics to pop out and... Why that? You didn't think like this yesterday, you didn't think like this to several minutes before Don't bullshit You're looking for attention? Yeah, but not from you. From yourself? Why the fuck would i need it? Do you consider yourself so low, so shallow that there's nothing in life for you that matters. .. It matters, i'm trying, i'm working, shaking Breaking glass on piece of pieces with the thought of connecting the puzzle that's supposed to represent me. Supposed to? Supposed to. I'm trying to tell you something What? I love you. Bullshit You hate yourself. I'm circling monologue, story Can't feel the flow, water's evaporating. I stop. Standing naked, in front of a mirror, looking at myself Today you're fine You'll be fine. You look fine, you're cool, nice, interesting A small smile 's showing, i almost believed it For i have tried so many times And a link to the discussion: http://patrickdurham.net/themightypen/index.php?/topic/17292-introduction-and-a-code/ ~ Hope you find this interesting and helpful Till next pages. Silly.
  8. Hiya, since none of you most likely know me for obviously i'm sort of a new-newbie around here, i'll start with this Name's Slobodan - roughly translated to english, it means Freeman (Which's kind of a irony when you get to know me) I'm from Serbia, and i've been introduced to this site, years ago (but only now i'm actually going to post something) by my father-figure and your known friend Lawrence Wilson, or simply Law (Peredhil). So yeah - here's the actual thing. I've had a discussion with Law, about well simply ways to live one's life I'm not here to "confess" my "sins" or anything like that, this thread'll be pretty much both psychological and existential in a way that, - well you'll read/see. Many of you, many of us - have our own personality/ies - that define us, or well, choices that we chose practically define who we are, and who we come to be, that's at least something in what i believe in. Tho' here i am - writing, in hope of sharing some knowledge and gaining some new I'm going to be writing about a "Code" - Choice, that i've chose to live by If by any chance you're wondering why would someone do that - live by a code - it's in my belief that many of us actually do that without even knowing that we are It's like quoting David Di'Angelo here - if you tell a goldfish that it's wet, it's simply going to stare back at you and say, uh-what-wet? And since, while i'm writing this - (I'm sort of a person who tends to unwillingly imagine scenarios about other people responding to whatever i do), i do hope that you might not find this only weird, but helpful - and well every feedback-discussion is appreciated. Code - What do i Want. #1. Possibility of choice. ~ Always, i can do whatever i want regardless to what voice in my head tells & says. #2. That i'm not slave to voices. ~ I am me, man who writes these passages yes "Freeman" (Insert name) you. Use voices as consultants but do not make each decision based by them, and do not rely on them. You and these voices aren't unmistakable You're fool if you think otherwise #3 You're not chained by religion. ~ Do not be afraid of mysticism, spirits, and other things. This's a world where man has a free will and where every action/choice has positive and negative reaction/outcome. #4 Do not be afraid to "do wrong" ~ Life's experience, from everything that happens to me/us, learn something new, and that new apply next time. #5 Gravitate towards the way to speak your mind, say what you think. ~ Sceneries in your head, are result of vast intellect, don't be slave to other people. Don't say things how you would please someone (You never have to do that) Have your own word, your own ground, defend it. #6 Don't be afraid of "fears" ~ Don't bother yourself way too much with "Oh i've said this, what's she/he going to think about it" "Why would you care?" It doesn't matter, you're you - you're yourself. Work on it to live your life and in the end, what happens'll happen. Help yourself so you "would be better" #7 You don't need ANYONE'S permission ~ To do anything that you wish If you want advice that's fine, but have more self-respect, and self-confidence. "in yourself" #8 Don't brag about everyday things Have your pride, stick to it. As well, have your own word. #9 Don't let anyone mess with you, make fun of you, 'n use you. Especially women. If someone's messing with you, trying to make fun of you Defend yourself, - don't be afraid to put other people down. (This all's said in a bad way, we all know when someone's simply just joking, and when someone's being a dick - again, don't be afraid to put other people, regardless of gender, down.) #10 What you think about someone & And every picture, view that you have of them It doesn't have to mean that they think like that about-themselves It doesn't have to mean that the picture-view is true. You can never be for certain Life is one strange thing (My thoughts about other people're negative because of surrounding that i've grown up) That doesn't mean that you shouldn't be on guard But it does mean that you need to stop chasing self-invented-picture of pictures of other people. Relax, you do not control other people's lives. Someone's going to disappoint you, someone won't. #11 Live life so you don't need anybody. Especially wife, girlfriend, people But remember, life's way prettier when you fill it with people But before all of that, you need to learn to be enough for yourself - be enough for yourself - And make sure to enrich your life, and every day, with new experiences #12 You're not in a hurry. You have had, You will Have, And you Have enough strength to make the thoughts that you think of happen-realize whenever you want it. (This's rough translation, i get it that "Follow your dreams" 'd make it be more understandable, tho' i find the "Follow your dreams" kind of... cheap version "meh, i unno' just do whatever other people do") You're not "Bound" by time, but it'd be silly to waste it. You do not have an eternity Spend it wisely, and don't let that frighten/scare you. #13. Have faith in your subconscious It's always there for you. Use every chance that you can get & make for better and happier life. #14. What you don't like about yourself - simply change it. ~ It is never too late But that doesn't mean that - that phrase should be your everyday excuse for new exciting things and anything else. #15. Have/be self-aware ~ Accept all of your positive and negative sides #16. Stop looking for acceptance ~ Be it of other people, men, women, and alike You do not need it. (But if someone's giving a free advice if you wish, listen to it) #17 Don't be jealous Why'd you want that? That's Yucky. #18. Don't be afraid to risk ~ Risk! Change life. #19 My Paradigm (Picture of life) ~ It was to follow destiny, and things that "will happen, would happen, and wont" Do not do that, simply live life. It's fine to plan, but do it consciously, without deja vu moments. #19.5 Practice Speech and communication with other people #20 Your depression isn't what attracts people, it's happiness, joy and being positive But do not submerge emotions, if something's bothering you, no matter how hard it is to say, just say it. #21. Do not give promises that you can't keep. #22 Please, never "Freeman" never stop with reading. You do not have many flaws You are fine. #23 When you do not know what you're doing Where to go, or what to do in some situation Simply ask yourself: 1. What do i want? 2. What seems right to me? 3. What would make me happy? #23.5 You're PERFECTLY FLAWED #24 I want from myself, that whenever i say that i'm going to do something, make a goal to work on making it come true. #25. I want more goals in life. #26. I'm not ashamed of anything ~ You are not ashamed of anything. #27. Remember your responsibilities #28. It's one thing for you, to write all of this. ~ Don't forget to apply it, to apply the code in life Stick to it. #29. You don't live to simply help other people. ~ If you want to fuck, fuck. #30 Don't say things which you don't mean ~ example: I respect you, i care about what you think - and such So you would "manipulate" people. Shortly - stop with manipulation But, do not be an open book, you do not have to say things that you don't want to. #31. Don't live life under chains of destiny. ~ Prove negative voices wrong, don't be afraid of success, don't be afraid of failure. Swim in life Break free, breathe. #32. Nothing in life doesn't happen accordingly ~ But that doesn't mean that you shouldn't do anything By doing "nothing you are nothing" #33. When you're with a girl, or some guy I want you, to be yourself, i want you to connect, to listen, to have fun #34. If you want something ~ You have to go and take it, you can't only wait. Change doesn't come by itself (This's actually something that friend of mine told me, i might be mean by saying this here, but hell, i've told her that myself - she doesn't seem smart, she looks quite dumb actually, and does some stupid shit, but she's by far the happiest and bravest person i've ever met, tho' this last part about being brave, haven't told her yet. will have to.) #35. Sex for me, and everyone else, is simple common thing. I can talk about it, i can make fun of it With girl, with anyone. #36. I write all of this I live my life, and my code. Voices are projection of me. I will not be afraid of loneliness, i always have myself. #37. Don't rush yourself and things that you do for yourself ~ So you could be there in time for other people. Your time, My time, is for me, is for you Priceless. No one matters more than me & you But, do help when you can because you want to do so, without any rush Without expecting anything in return. #38 Every human being is "standalone for itself" We're all individuals, paradox of being different and indifferent Accept it. #39. Don't miss chances for better life. ~ Sex, relationships,friendships for some self-invented picture of other people. #40. Take care of yourself first, then about "your others" #41. Live with code. #42. Dreams that you have, are projections of "want" - things that you want to do. Make ones that you want come true. #42.5 Do not feel, lost, disappointed, or like you've failed. ~ Because something that you've dreamt, didn't come to pass You don't control everything Spread positive energy, and make positive choices Don't be bitter, you have no reason to. #43. Be surrounded by people who're positive and want to help you. ~ "Castrate" negative douches. #44. Stop searching for meaning ~ Of every thought, each dream, each choice, every action, or anything in life. #46 Don't be afraid of yourself. ~ Do not doubt in yourself, and do not question your each decision #47. Stop living in your own magical built bubble of fate ~ Live for today. #48 Thoughts, and daydreams are one thing. ~ Have control over yourself Have control of choice. "That - that one thought or idea comes to your mind, it does not mean that you have to make it come true" You do not. #49 Do not think/invent scenarios ~ In which you lose things that you've gained (Phone, Guitar, expensive stuff etc.) Remove feeling of bad self-worth You deserve what you have. Keep your belongings safe, and be proud of them. #50. Do not be afraid to add more to the code. ~ Say, write what you think, how would you like to live your life and live it. You can do it. #51 Your predictions are result not of fate, but of the things that "you want" Fight for positive thoughts, and live positive With more success #52. Man can always find a way to fuck himself up ~ Point is, to stop searching. #53 When a Fa-Javu & Deja Vu occurs (Alright, the Fa-Javu 's self invention of mine since i couldn't find a word to describe and since it has a connection to "Javu" itself, i've simply chosen to invent a word that explains following meaning) When something, scenario, something that has happened near me, or in that moment when something occurs like it was destined, fated I'll remember code, and i'll remember that it's only known to me, because some part of me wants it to be, and that some part of me has daydreamed about it. (Even this. Right here, now what you're reading, while i'm typing this, i'm "certain that a part of me has thought even before i've done, known this, that i will do this on this website" I can't label this as a disease, but it sort of heh, another invention feels like a sleeper-agent sort of a thing. Where i'll think of something "date doesn't matter" and i'll forget about it, till that moment comes when i'll do what i've unwillingly programmed myself into doing, and when i've done it, i'll think that it was fated - Tho', heh - it's something that i'm struggling with, an acceptance of idea of "Normality" aka - it was just a thought, by me) #54. Learn to accept compliment ~ Do not seek for flaw in every action, word. #55 Personal hygiene is on first priority ~ Do not run from chores, responsibilities ~ Do not be lazy #56. Do not use people as mirrors ~ It's fine to have role-models But do not copy someone's personality You're one unique on this world, and there will never be another exact same you You do not change for anybody. #57 Stop with the thoughts ~ That every good thing in life, and every good choice, that you make Will be followed by something bad. It wont. It's a teaching by other people. Time is neutral I am maker of my own fate. #58. The fact, that i want to live by code ~ And that - i want to change, myself, differently, program It doesn't mean that i'm followed nor am i destined something "bad" in life, just because i'm trying to change my life for better. That's bad programming and influence from other people. I repeat with strength without fear I change, i live my code, I'll add to my code. #59 I will not be blinded by "fake success" ~ I've only won, when i've realized what i've wanted Not only when i've just had a feeling. #60. In writing and expressing, and talking For you, there's no term/feeling "Disgust" You're not disgusted of emotions You're not disgusted when it comes to sex. Alright, so that's about it for now - I don't know how people live their lives, and what they do, in the end i can only visualize it - Oh, by the way, i'm 19 years old, Musician, writer and besides going to university for media & communications: relationships with public, i'm an everyday joker. So yeah. If you find something useful here, or simply if you feel like giving a feedback of what you've actually thought, or simply for discussion sake while you've read this Feel free to Till next pages. ~ Silly PS: I've translated "code" as best as i could from Serbian and how i've written it for myself, to english, hope you'll understand it.
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